Me a fish
& you my sea
Your waves washed me
Onto the beach
The birds they came
& pecked my chest
My gills got filled
With earthly breath
I gasped and flipped
I flopped & squirmed
My fins went limp
My scales, all torn
(We go as fast as we are born)

I looked up high
Beyond the wind
& prayed to have  
Just one last swim
The sun went dim
The wind did blunder
Your waves create
and swept me under
I gasped again
But in reverse
Submersed and cursing every bird
My fins are ripped
I cannot swim
I float along your currents whims
I asked you why
You pushed me out
To watch me bleed
struck with a knout
You calmed and said
Simply to me
You are my fish
And me, your sea

I am not allowed
I sleep here
I walk into these walls
I lean
I lean
A rectangle
No longer affording rest
I change my sheets
It doesn't change a thing
A sea, full
Like my mothers house
A row of coral
Beautiful and rough
& I wonder where my home is
I wonder where her home is
In doing this
Tiny bits of purple
flowers crumbled
I try to calm your
Exhausted heart
Your feet up
Your head down
Who am I to know
When nothing stays
And nothing is saved
Or amazing
who are we to grow
At this age
And I thought I knew
(something)
About you
Daring
Dared
I dare you to tell me what you're thinking
You never really do
I can't dissect
Or just won't
And reaching out
I feel pulled
Pulling like
Judgement
Nasty, jealous
Waiting
For me to
Tear it all up again
But you
You, like a quiet dog
Heavy sigh
heavy sides
As you lay down
Next to me
And me
Like a mouse
Never calm
Until I'm dying

uprooted and tripped
I grip sticks
& lift myself
Up through the earth
I surf dirt
Tiny seconds of this
Tiny seconds of bliss
& rocks like
Steps
Steps
Steps
Built just for me
In this
Extravagant garden
This overlooked rock
A spot
I always long for

I see your face
& all the mistakes I made
While we dated
& I hate that ****
I'd like to replace it
With a milkshake & some cake
And say
"Hey. We're okay - that ****'s lame, the cakes great, let me help take the pain away."
& you'd say "okay"
I want to do it right this time
I know criminals tend to commit the same crimes
But you aren't blind
& neither am I
I'm not even here to win this time
And in time
I really hope you feel that

Tiny blocks of sky-bits
Got locked behind my eyelids
I'm blinded
I'm trippin
I watch you live
I give in
But hell - I don't listen
I'm ****** cause of this
I'm not dumb
I've been dumber
Cause you got other loves
Our loves lost like -
Time for slumber
Making moving forward
Feel more like going under
This is the story of my
Life
during this god awful summer
I'm struck
& you
You're like thunder to me
So loud
It's astounding
& you remain unseen

The reality of this is clear -
If I've got nothing to lose
Nothing to choose from
I got nothing to fear
I just want to believe again
& you knock like it's easy
To turn this ****
& let you back in
But you run
Deeper than blood
In this skin
I'm pushing you out through a vein
& we can't even be friends
We can't even be NOTHING
a race that ended weeks ago
& I'm still out here running
It isn't fun anymore
I ought to be done with with it
I wanna slow burn you off of my tongue
With some *** and sit
Quiet
No drums
No lines to spit
It's time to do me
Like where I come from
The sun is lit
And I'll just follow the sky
Like a crow
With tunnel vision

The sea has shown me
Many things
Like how to float
How not to sink
To be aware of danger's tales
To live amongst the sharks
The whales
The sea she cures my sores
With salt
Waves that shave my
Every thought
The wind she sends
A scent that melts
Everything I thought I felt
In the sand a name was carved
The waves they came
& Dissolved it off
Nothing left of me and you
I watch the sun pass by the moon
And slide my body through the sand
And swim unseen
Till I see land