He took off his shirt
I took off mine
He took me into his arms and put me on our bed
He touched me in places I never knew were there
As he kissed my lips
I ran my fingers through his hair
As he put himself into me
I shivered in fear
He asked me if I was alright
I shook my head yes
We made love for hours
we tossed and turned all over
By six in the morning I fell asleep for what seemed like forever
I woke up to the smell of french toast he was cooking in the kitchen
I left our room naked
I wanted more of him
I hugged him from behind
he turned around, grabbed my face and kissed me
We made love on the kitchen floor
screaming and moaning as the french toast burned

beauty
peaceful
joy
fragile
vibrations
lifelessness
damp
comfort
­breath of relief
looking in the water to see who she really is.
Feeling the cooling of the peaceful water
to find the beauty of herself.
loving
caring
kindness
the taste of difference
look at the world in a different view.
love medicine
pleasure
soothing waters
breath of light
power.

I know you think you realize
How I truly feel
But I don't think you recognize
What is really real
The hardest thing for me to show
Is all my actual pain
Because no matter how I share it,
It will never go away
I cry myself to sleep at night,
To try to tire myself out
Hoping that the nightmares I have,
I will forget about
That's just the bare minimum
And I am sorry to say
That you will never understand
Unless you see it my way

I've now got the courage to smile through the pain.
The courage to love again. The courage to face my flaws and still be strong.
The courage to accept the past although it all went wrong.
The courage to stand my ground and face you, with all the challenges that came along.
The courage to be me again aside from all the pain.

She had a quiet mind.
She listened more than words come out of her.
She did not only listen, she analysed everything.
How your mouth was in movement, how you eyes looked, how your tone in the voice changed.
It was not only words you gave her, you gave her a picture.
And a picture is more than thousand words.
She had a quiet mind. But her eyes was busy.

Looking on everything, the vibrations, colours, heat, everything.
She was always quiet.
But now that she is gone, everyone is quiet for her.

Thinking more before their actions.

I can feel my heart shatter
When u act like nothing happened
Whenever it really does matter

Y turn your back on me now
When u said u felt that way
Just go as I get a towel

To wipe my face from the tears
As u laugh away with your peers
And I am here with all these fears

I told you all of these little things
But yet it didn't stop this pain
I am here wishing for fangs

To rip my heart out of my chest
As I am here choking the sobs away
I just wanted love but I failed this test

Now u see me here alone, quiet
But u save your breath with me
But I for one am not defiant

I stay away like you said
But I can't help but long for you
When I apparently misread

All those messages keep going on in my head
But I save them to myself
Until I am dead

Now I push people away
Cuz I'm too afraid of getting hurt
But it doesn't matter now, okay

I choose to either trust or not
But I choose not cuz of the mishaps
But it's not like I fought

For the chance to find out why
I couldn't understand your lies
But now I have to lie

To others who ask what's the matter
Cuz u were too embarrassed by the truth
But u ended our chatter

And I just sit here dumbfounded
By what u said to all those people
For which I thought we were bounded

Cuz of the way we talked to each other
So I was all happy for no reason
But why do I even bother

When I can just fall to the ground
But I have to try and empty my thoughts
Of you Cuz I need to go around

But I can't since u stand in my way
I can't say to others what happened
Since I am not okay

Even collapsing channels
Won't prevent our minds funnels
For it seems unclear
Somewhat touching
Our dearest fears
Touching what?
Or do you dare?
Place yourself alone?
Till you crawl back home
Guess what? I'll be there!