I was afraid because I could observe him day after day and not find one thing I didnt like about him.

I adored him.

You hurt and numb me at the same time.

My soul is becoming lifeless.
My eyes feel like they're bleeding.
My heart feels more alive when it skips a couple beats.
I like the feeling of feeling hungry.
I would rather feel the pain of an empty stomach.
My mouth is dry.
My body never sleeps .
I can't feel my face.
My tongue is swollen with bite marks.
My jaw won't stop locking.
My throat is so soar that I can barely swollow.

But you never seem to let me down.

Deep inside my head I am jumping off the tallest mountian and nobody knows.

But you're here to help. Right?

Are you scared to tell me you have beyond more than lust for me?
The words try to slip the seal of your lips.
Your eyes are worth a thousands words. Left unspoken.
But I read you clear.
While you look at me confused.
You'd rather tell me.
I just want to show you
That silence can speak for itself .

If I lose him.
I swear I will never love again.

Awake with the dead.
Hair slowly thinning.
Sleep is for the weak.
Teeth so fragile.
Around men and women that have lost their ways. Grinding their teeth. Been ups for days.
Eyes sinking in. As dark as unspoken words.
The kid in the cornor twitching his head.
Oh so forgetful.
We'll sleep when we're dead.