I wish I could escape
This brutal hell I'm in
I have to see you everywhere
I'm starting to give in

It isn't getting better
One of us needs to leave
You're causing me a pain
But you don't care about my needs

I think I still love you
It may not seem like it
Every time you see me
You throw a ******* fit

You don't scream or yell
Or things like that
You give me ***** looks
Making me feel attacked

I used to love your blond hair
And your pretty brown eyes
Now I see aggression in them
Only spreading lies

I know you'll never say the words again
"Yes, I love you, too"
I miss those days
But for now
I guess
I'll see you

I never realized
How much you were needed
Until you left me
My emotions you feeded

I want to feel angry
And kick and scream and shout
But I can't seem to hate you
This isn't what love's about

That's why we're not together
I want to sit and pout
My heart is becoming locked
Not letting happiness out

I love you
I hate you
I really can't decide
You've made me so confused
There is no compromise

It's all my fault
That no one can deny
How did it come to this
My heart wants to die

I wanted to have a picture
Of just you and me
Being in your loving arms
For all of eternity

Our touch would be the brushstroke
On the canvas of our lives
Your soft, beautiful lips on mine
Is where we would truly strive

The painting is falling apart
From the rainfall of tears
I miss you so much
Why aren't you here?

You painted over me
Erased me from your life
Do you even care
That you made my emotions fight

You won't acknowledge me
I guess that's for the better
I'll maybe see you later
In the picture of you that makes my teardrops wetter

I didn't feel it at first
Which isn't very strange
For your words to cause this effect on me
And give me such a pain

"This isn't working out"
"I'm very sorry," you said
Is all I can think about
Making me feel dead

It's very hard for me
To think about your face
Your very beautiful eyes
That made me freeze in place

I guess it's my fault
Yeah I know it's true
If I had spoken up some more
I'd still be with you

You were my boyfriend
My very first at that
If I keep feeling this pain
I'll have a heart atta--

These feelings I cannot hide
What I'm feeling deep inside
With anyone else, I'm full of pride
But with you, I have to lie

Most don't notice the walk I have
Hiding this is driving me mad
The remarks I hear are so **** bad
Then your comments make me sad

The terms and the names
Are driving me insane
They think we're all the same
"No grandma. I'm not gay"

I like girls
But guys are nice too
I don't know
What to do

For now I guess
I'll have to hide
The simple fact
That I am bi

When I'm sad, I can't let my happiness grow...
For that, I need ******

The problem with anxiety
Oh please don't talk to me
Please, stranger
Leave me be!

A party?
No thanks, I think I'll pass
I'm the last person you would want to ask
No, I'm not giving you sass
Please stop being such an ***

You said you liked it *****
So I pushed you in the mud

I wrote a haiku
I have never written one
Here is the ending

You're still mad at me
Even when I apologize
Some days you left me alone
Making me want to die

Why do you make me feel this way
I feel as guilty as you
You never told me what was wrong
As I did with you

You said nothing some days
Making me feel hated
You don't even say "hi" anymore
Making me feel faded

You never said your worries
And said you needed space
As you left me in the dark
Needing your warm embrace

You have abandoned me
Leaving me alone
We used to be so special
Now our love is gone