it's so saddening
when everyone's worst work is
better than your best.

You broke a promise again
Imagine that
Me being let down by you
Left to grovel on the cold hard ground
What an emotional wreck I turn into
When you don't do the things
You say you're going to
Breaks my hopeful heart right in two
Devastates my once excited soul
That you can hurt me like you do
Why?
So little to you do I mean?
What is so hard about keeping your word to me?
Isn't that all most men have?
You can always justify anything though
It's almost impressive how you always make yourself and your side sound so good
You never run out of answers but
What does that matter if you can't hear my questions...
So tired of being made to feel inadequate and less important
You want a two way street...?
Then maybe you should learn to share the road
Why must we always compete?
I thought we were on the same team...?
You can be so cruel with your words sometimes especially when
You spit them at me so carelessly
Didn't anyone ever teach you to think before you speak?
You like so much to debate
Well now allow me to deliberate about what I really feel and think
You don't want me to be so emotional or upset
But how should I react
When the person I love is breaking the heart inside my chest...?
You're so much smarter than me so please tell me
How to feel, what to think, and who I should be
You're right about us sounding good on paper
Imagine that you being right about something....
That's got to be a curse and yet it you embrace
Sorry I couldn't surpass your expectations
I know you always wanted to find an exception
To all your rules about love and life
Maybe someday you will find it
And for her sake I hope she has no feelings
Sorry you think I'm spoiled
Guess I thought the Queen of your heart deserved to be put on a pedestal
If I'm going to be a princess
Guess I should find a prince charming to take care of me then
What's so wrong with me wanting things my way for a change?
Don't you know all you would give me you'd get back ten fold?
Never thought I wasn't worth your undivided attention
Didn't realize your time was so precious
Your life is definitely more important than mine though
I'm just a nobody living in *** ****** Missouri
Didn't realize I was dating such a big shot...
Guess because I loved you before you became so hot
I loved you before you got so busy
I loved you when you were hopeless and un-happy
I was there for you to lean on or to listen whatever you needed
You're the only man I've ever believed in
I let my guard down
Let myself fall
Let you tear down all my walls
Disregarded my intuition and my gut
Passed the point of no return
Stood still when instinct told me to run
Don't I give you all you want and more?
I'm always at your beckon call
Now tell me what the hell for?
Is this all in vain?
Should this not torment my soul?
Tell me why I don't deserve all you have to give me?
Why don't I deserve love that is true?
Why do you get my hopes up
And then let me down like it's no big thing?
I'm in love with you, though I never wanted to be
And this is why because what you view as love
is
*******  killing me...