Surrounded by the murkiest shades of grey
I find myself torn, lost and dazed
A heart forlorn, longing for the blissful days
Of just black and white, so plush and plain.

I dream of you desperately
I picture my arms around you tightly,
my face buried in your chest;
begging you to melt my frozen tears away...

though my limbs waver when I think of you,
I'd **** for you to seize me when I least expect it

Pain bloomed,
along its festering vines
It's tendrils
peered through my eyes
I could feel them,
throughout my exposure
choking me, suffocating.
I was reborn
I was trapped, content.
My body, never again was rhythmic
With fueled strength,
I watched in distance,
how they burned.

The nervous flicker of the candle's light
Dances wildly in my glistening eyes.
Feeling the cold night's tight embrace,
I quietly watch as the candle burns away.

Then I glance at my own guilty hands,
Smoothest skin ending at bitten down nails.
While my frenetic heart slams against my ribs,
Loud and clear, over and over again.

'Evil' and 'ungodly'
It's heaven exploding in my ears
'Sinister' and 'disgusting'
I feel my brain sing
'Satanic' and 'wicked'
I bang my head to the sickest beat.