'Evil' and 'ungodly'
It's heaven exploding in my ears
'Sinister' and 'disgusting'
I feel my brain sing
'Satanic' and 'wicked'
I bang my head to the sickest beat.

Paralyzed,
I stare ahead;
Everyone is long gone.

I sigh, drenched in guilt,
Feeling my consciousness scream.

If you ever cared to look back,
you would have seen me miserable,
falling far behind you on bleeding feet,
at each monstrous step you take,
screeching for you to stop;
begging for you to spare me.
But you never did, nor ever heard me.
And you will never know when my cries fade out,
finally, into the solace which forbids your haunt.

My backstabbed dreams
Lament the dripping knife in my hands

They were deaf as I screamed;
Blind, when i couldn't speak;
Angry, when I started to burn;
In flames, as my ashes kissed the earth.

Never saw my terrified mind,
When it was screeching to be free.
At last it was free amongst the flames,
Or so it thought, 'fore it refused to burn away.

Are they invisible,
the bruises on my face,
the ****** scars across my chest,
and the fury in my gaze?
All my blood wasted,
seem infinite, these heavy tears.
Will I ever breathe in,
a breath that wouldn't burn?