I imagine the little things
Like you and I making breakfast together for the first time
And us sitting in a coffee shops enjoying each other company in silence
Me, writing you love letters and slipping them into your coat pockets
You, making us tea

I dream of the first time we kiss
And how I will grab you at the waist and pull you in close

I think of the first time we'll fight
And how it will keep me up all night wondering if I did something wrong
And you telling me everything is alright

Now that I've said goodbye...
I've realized just how much I love your hello,
that cute little smile you give me from across the room,
the tight embrace you hold me in every day,
and the way your eyes search deep into mine.

Now that I've said goodbye...
I've realized just how much I treasure our times,
the laughter we share over nothing and everything,
the waves of affection and amazement that pour over me,
and telling you every part of my innermost thoughts.

Now that I've said goodbye...
I've realized that I wasn't ready to yet.

i want you to know that this world is a gloriously sad, brilliant, depressing place,
full of people that will make you smile
and cry
and scream
and torment
and rave
and rant
and retaliate
in agony, marching to the beat of self indulgence

you'll hear them say, with conviction
this is good, or this is bad and
if you don't think so than
burn in hell or
******* outright

you just dance on your parapet
all the same

sway your body to the universe
and dribble your soul on the sidewalk
let the world witness glorious blasphemy
a body that's free
a mind that lives in ecstasy

just remember me
i swayed you off to sleep
a father with a small
prophesy