J: Poems

324 · Jul 2014

That Feeling

J Jul 2014

That Feeling

I just know it
...
The feeling of knowing
With no proof
That I am the man on the side

#silence

315 · Jun 2015

Long time coming

J Jun 2015

Long time coming

it's been a while
Since I felt like this
But my god you I miss

#drunk #you #miss

311 · Aug 2014

Switching Off

J Aug 2014

Switching Off

If there was a way
To turn off your brain,
Just for a second
Would you take it?

Just to escape
For a little while ..
Memories build a person
The pain makes you, you

But once you enter my head
There isn't an escape
I want the old us
Not the one we have

We said we wouldn't get attached
So I let it be as much as I could
But even now when I sleep
I wish you were next to me

1am ... the lonely hour

#me #to #next

305 · Feb 2014

To My Next

J Feb 2014

To My Next

Expect I will adore you
Think that you are the one
That I had to be patient for

Allow me to fall for you
Then don't hurt me too badly
When I do

304 · Jul 2020

Alone

J Jul 2020

Alone

First hangover post lockdown
I don't think I've ever felt more alone
Maybe it's the hangover or
Maybe I finally I can say it

I don't know if, I would have felt
Any different if we had lockdown together
But you gave me everything
And I took you for granted

Maybe I would have noticed it more
All the things you did,
How you gave have me your heart
And you were always there

I don't know where you are
How you are
But I hope your safe
I hope you are happy

#alone #lockdown #hangover

301 · Jul 2014

Alone

J Jul 2014

Alone

Yet another sleepless night
Everything going through my mind
I am slowly losing it
A matter of time before I snap

Nothing is right
Sleep,
Work,
Life.

298 · Jun 2013

Inflict

J Jun 2013

Inflict

It was me
Nothing you could do
I wish I wasn't like this
Something you'll never know

286 · Jul 2014

Worst Bit

J Jul 2014

Worst Bit

I find myself
Dropping everything
When you come to me
I swallow my pride
Wishing you to be by my side

John Mayer - Man on the side

284 · Jul 2013

Stand With Me

J Jul 2013

Stand With Me

Most days its the last thing I'd want
Hours now pass without you in my mind
I question if this is better of worse
But today's not like most
You don't belong to me
But I still belong to you

** Hey - The Lumineers

282 · Sep 2013

Silence

J Sep 2013

Silence

Is the hardest thing for me to suffer
Millions of thoughts trying to make sense,
Be angry, be sad, say you want to **** me
Any sign that you care

How did we go from 'I miss you'
To not a message, a call, or a prayer
I always mess it up
Call me do you dare

278 · Feb 2014

Unfinished

J Feb 2014

Unfinished

Everything I felt
I wrote down on this page
It crashed but it's everything
I wanted to say to you

Everything I felt and thought
Along with that poem are gone
Just like the chance I had
With you

The page actually crashed and my poem has gone. One hour I spent but it's almost better that it's gone...

274 · Jan 2014

Need Someone

J Jan 2014

Need Someone

Finally I am ready for the next
Too long it has taken
Yet I would settle
Is that loneliness or is it love?

Within a heartbeat I would return
Am I afraid of more pain
Or is it more?
Something we will never know

268 · May 2013

Retired

J May 2013

Retired

I am
I have
I'm done

But I know I'm not

266 · Nov 2013

No Words

J Nov 2013

No Words

I miss you
Like a writer without a pen
A walker without boots
And a car without wheels

I am not complete without
The image of you within my head
One I have drawn ...
With you by my side

263 · Oct 2013

Enough

J Oct 2013

Enough

I need to stop
Thinking the way I do
Wondering what do
I can't do with staying
In this blue

254 · May 2019

Sorry

J May 2019

Sorry

I should have said
...
But how do I say
I wish I loved you
But I don't

..................

This is the worst
Thing I could have done
...
Not being honest
And hiding how I feel

..................

Now I am
What I don't
Want to be
...
Dishonest

.................

But time is
What I thought
Was best
...
How I was wrong

Prelonging thoughts is the worst thing I have done.

Be honest. Time won't help.

I thought in time I would fall for you.

#time

249 · Mar 2014

Enough is enough

J Mar 2014

Enough is enough

You aren't the one for me
I knew that from the start
But then why does it hurt
When we are apart

248 · Oct 2013

Miss You

J Oct 2013

Miss You

Of course I do
Your eyes,
Your hair,
And everything you do

Most of all
Your smile
Which you seem to hide
From clear view

What do I do
But for now
I will just say
.. I miss you ..

233 · Feb 2014

This

J Feb 2014

This

Am not happy like this
When you don't reply
But when you do
This world is alright

218 · Jul 2019

Void

J Jul 2019

Void

I feel like I am just,
Waiting for time to pass

I don't want anything,
I don't need anything

I want this period of time,
To just finish and be done

I'm not angry
Or empty nor sad

Yet it's hard to answer,
'Are you alright?'

Because I don't know how I feel

Guess I will go to the gym
Drink till I'm blind

And hope that soon
That I won't be so bland

216 · Jul 2013

Skies of Rain

J Jul 2013

Skies of Rain

As I look above
The drops hit my eyes
It could of been a second
It could of been a day
Motionless I stood

Time stopped in that moment
My problems didn't go
I saw it all
It had a face
I saw it from a different view

209 · Jul 2013

Lost My Mind

J Jul 2013

Lost My Mind

I know when I did
When I knew I could
Only question
Would?

'Leap Of Faith'

209 · Feb 2014

Why?

J Feb 2014

Why?

Why did you
Leave without a goodbye
Why did you
Not reply
Why did you
Leave me here to die

Broken

174 · Mar 20

I Instantly Knew (16 w)

J Mar 20

I Instantly Knew (16 w)

From the very first glance,

You were different,
This was different,

Together, we could be special?

Maybe this is it? ❤️

138 · Apr 7

Not Over

J Apr 7

Not Over

From fairytale to stuttering
But we’re still going
Just a lot slower
…
Love doesn’t just happen
…
Just tell me you’ll
Come back to me

So we can be
Just like we were before

60 · May 7

Lost

J May 7

Lost

I’m still lost without you
I didn’t realise how broken
I was before I met you

You gave me
Hope, Happiness and Love

I’m still sad but
I’m glad you made me feel alive
I’m glad I fell in love

Now I know I need to learn to love myself

I still miss you

47 · Apr 27

I Wish

J Apr 27

I Wish

I Wish you knew
How I felt
How I miss you

I Wish we could be
Where we were before
Where I knew you wanted me

I Wish you understood
What you meant to me
What you represented

Perhaps it was all hope...
Hope of a future that was never meant to be

Goodbye A.... I wish I could fall for you again... because it was magic.

— The End —