If there was a way
To turn off your brain,
Just for a second
Would you take it?

Just to escape
For a little while ..
Memories build a person
The pain makes you, you

But once you enter my head
There isn't an escape
I want the old us
Not the one we have

We said we wouldn't get attached
So I let it be as much as I could
But even now when I sleep
I wish you were next to me

Yet another sleepless night
Everything going through my mind
I am slowly losing it
A matter of time before I snap

Nothing is right
Sleep,
Work,
Life.

I find myself
Dropping everything
When you come to me
I swallow my pride
Wishing you to be by my side

Is the hardest thing for me to suffer
Millions of thoughts trying to make sense,
Be angry, be sad, say you want to **** me
Any sign that you care

How did we go from 'I miss you'
To not a message, a call, or a prayer
I always mess it up
Call me do you dare

Everything I felt
I wrote down on this page
It crashed but it's everything
I wanted to say to you

Everything I felt and thought
Along with that poem are gone
Just like the chance I had
With you

I miss you
Like a writer without a pen
A walker without boots
And a car without wheels

I am not complete without
The image of you within my head
One I have drawn ...
With you by my side

I am
I have
I'm done

But I know I'm not

I feel like I am just,
Waiting for time to pass

I don't want anything,
I don't need anything

I want this period of time,
To just finish and be done

I'm not angry
Or empty nor sad

Yet it's hard to answer,
'Are you alright?'

Because I don't know how I feel

Guess I will go to the gym
Drink till I'm blind

And hope that soon
That I won't be so bland

As I look above
The drops hit my eyes
It could of been a second
It could of been a day
Motionless I stood

Time stopped in that moment
My problems didn't go
I saw it all
It had a face
I saw it from a different view

I Wish you knew
How I felt
How I miss you

I Wish we could be
Where we were before
Where I knew you wanted me

I Wish you understood
What you meant to me
What you represented

Perhaps it was all hope...
Hope of a future that was never meant to be