Jacqueline Flores

Jacqueline Flores Feb 2014

grey

the day i fell in love with you
the sky was grey
the water looked grey
everything seemed grey... but me

i should have known that the color
was a warning
telling me to not fall in love with you

now everything
is full of color
but me

j.f

#love #sad #pain #lost #wrong #color #grey

Jacqueline Flores Feb 2014

breaking

i'm jealous of all the people that
can see your eyes glow when the sun stares
can feel your heartbeat when you're out of breath
can see each and every little freckle on your face

i'm terrified that the love you say you have for me
will be gone in a matter of seconds
just when that other girl that can feel your heartbeat
see your eyes glow
that can count each and every freckle you have
will touch your skin
the way i wish i can and you'll love her like you claim you love me
maybe even more

but it wont be my fault this time
it will be yours and your cowardly way of loving someone

and how in your mind i live 5 thousand miles away from you
when in reality you only live 2 miles away from me

the scars you've had in the past that you can't let go of
you're afraid to feel what you felt for her again
you're afraid to be hurt like she hurt you
but if anything you're not the one getting hurt anymore
i am
and its my pleasure to be breaking from a girl like you ..

j.f

Jacqueline Flores Feb 2014

idea

it's been a while since i've heard you say
                                    i love you
so i think about it and if you still love me
                                        like you claim you do
but i dont even know if i love you
like i claim to love you or
                  just the idea of you
and
sadly, that is the worse way to love someone

j.f

Jacqueline Flores Feb 2014

Free

Every seven years i heard that the cells in your naked body is destroyed and replaced
by a new set of clean cells and its quite a nice feeling knowing
that in just 2 years my body will have never been touched by your bare big hands
my skin will become pure it can
stop rusting like it has been deep under the ocean for thousands of years

i cant wait for the day i come to the surface and just breathe a new oxygen
and you.. you will be out of my mind, and i.. i will not be afraid of you anymore
and you will continue to rot like i have been rotting for 5 years 6 months and 23 days

j.f

Its been more than seven years now, your skin has now never touched me .. 05/16

Jacqueline Flores Jan 2014

Hurting

You passed away a few years ago
It hurts more than
a wall crushing my body together
making it into a flat surface
where you can just step on top
It still hurts me
when I write down the words
you were once saying to me
I wonder if your soul follows me around
and is hurting
when you realize
you're still hurting me
even when you're buried
6 feet under the ground
j.f

Jacqueline Flores Jan 2014

you're not sorry

i am not in love with you
i'm in love with the way you talk
the way your mind quite works
the way you get things the way you want
the way you say you love me

and i know it sure does seem like i am
with the way i just wrote about yourself
and the words i wrote with this blue pen
is actually who you are

but sadly, those are things you're making me believe you are
i'm just in love with the image you made of yourself
and whom you want to believe you are

and frankly, that is the worse way to make someone love you

j.f

im just telling myself im not in love with you but sadly i am :(

Jacqueline Flores Dec 2013

part of me

i thought you were so beautiful
with the way your hip bones faced the ceiling
laying back on my bed

you asked me about my darkest secrets
without caring i told you
you left afterwards
leaving me with my secrets told
and with my secrets on the tip of your tongue
leaving you with a part of me

so the next person you kiss
will know my name

j.f