My eyes open to the state of my being
When did my ability to decide
Fall broken it's little pieces tinkling down
I have given up most of my reasons to stop
Protected the only bad thing at the cost of so much.  
My mood falls to look back up at me
The way I was and I recognize how badly
I need to be the one that I gave away

Vividly the dream is playing
I am an actor as well as witness
As the pursuit unfolds in confusing
Scene after scene as dread closes in.
If do not wake, or wait to see the end
I hear my conscious saying
I may never wake again.  
So I will myself to the here and now
Bolting up to opening eyes
That dart and survey surroundings
Drinking in the painful light
I am safe, it was a dream
Though the sense of foreboding
Lingers all that day.
Am I safe?  
Afraid to sleep and slip beneath
As what waits is waiting
Am I safe?

Here it lays since
Fixed still a fixture
Every day that followed
The hand that wielded
Let such prize slip
Lifeless and defeated
To rest outside ages
And indeed ages passed
A single crack telling
One timid ray that crept
Marking the days
As seasons came and went
Layered in the settled dust
And destined to this tomb
The end to the era of promise
The death of magic

I
  MOVE
             TO
                 KNOW
                              THE
                                      POI
                                           N
                                            T

                                            I

                                            W
                                             I
                                             L
                                             L

                                            NOT

I am not here
This is not me
I am more than what
This innocent
only temporary
I need not usher in
All will come clear
As I transend
Not before then