This feeling is a starry night behind my eyes
A revival of beauty I chose to forsake
But never left

You are this heart in my chest and I love you
Everything about you is perfect as is
And if you change I will change with you
You never wanted to hear it but you are loved
And prayed over constantly
God will replace every pain with a golden rose
You will find love in this life
For I've always loved you
Even from afar

My greatest friend
My greatest love
Wherever you are
Find your way home

Has my heart adjusted to the dark//
or have I simply fallen apart?

Are you with me still//
or do you fear me?

Does the distance end//
with the silence?

The wolf cries out in hunger//
for when love was young.

The questions fall too short//
to the walls of our forts.

This is embodied agony//
lusts for my love to be given.

Solemn and dignified I let the devil reach inside
To twist everything up with his twisted lies
Honey placed on my lips but a knife in my side
I let him slide past as he let me backslide
"I'm done with his lies" I lie to myself
Unless that lie is from him I can't tell anymore
Lines are so blurred like lines from tear stained poems
They're never good enough and I want to throw them
and throw up
Cuz I've never shaped up to the man I make myself out to be
It seems the seams of my dreams gets ripped apart by reality
My reality is I have no control and that scares me
Cuz holding on means safety
and I can't safely let go of things I'm too scared to fall
Let me talk myself out of this please
Reach inside and twist these lies
Just one more time