Finally come to my senses
Realize i still want you so bad
I had died in your arms
But came back to life when you came back
The moon is shining brightly again
Contemplating..
Dreaming in vain..
Wishing there were a thousand shooting star to fall..
Craving for your touch..
Smelling your scent with eyes wide open
Dreaming..
Your smile brings out the spark in my eyes
Your smell is my addiction..
You are the lyrics of my song
You are the words in my poetry..
You releases a positivity inside of me
Your laughter is my medicine..
Your presence are my joy
So real and so pure..
Your wit is what mostly i adore
I could not wish for anything more..

The sun rises up and the sun sets down
But here i am wearing my heart with a frown
This christmas breeze frost the air
Like it frosted my heart having love thats so unfair

I walk in the aisles of madness and woe
asking myself do you think of me too?
I used to belong to this wildfire of yours
But i am just a human and i can no longer take the curse

My life would'nt be the same without you to break the ice
Moments of fire already gone in my eyes
But i still believe letting go of you is the right thing i should do
Having you still means i selfishly loves you

Thats why i have to wear a mask and keeps on pretending
dreaming im flying while my heart is already flooding
Flooding with grief and sorrow
Worrying myself what will happen tomorrow..

I used to confide to you all my heartaches and pain
But now i know i cannot do it again
Now i confessed my sorrow in the corner of the leaves of the trees
Letting it fly as the wind breeze

I am all alone now and still walking in the same path that i've been thru
Keeping all my heartaches and my moments of blue
letting myself to soar high along the shore
Keeping my secrets in the sand where my life has bore

My secrets that has been carried away by the wave
Where it made my love for you everlastingly unsaved
I know i have to stop this emotion in which i felt for you
like a fire in my heart where the wind has blew

Oh if i could only see you now!
In front of you i will make a vow
Vow to fight for my love for you even i know that is unfair
But here i am sitting wounded in a stair..

Creating a melody of my own
Building hatred for what my life had shown
But i know until the clock strikes at its last nine
I know inside of me i just cannot make you mine!

look into thine eyes..
can you see that burning fire of desire..
it can only be felt
only if i am with you
only with you..

I love you but you love her
she loves vain..
Love's what you gave her
while i gathered pain..

I love you but you dont love me
Now im blaming myself for being lonely
Is that what love is all about?
pure of nothing but doubts?

Summer begins but i love you still
promise myself to love you until..
A man wakes me up from my dreams
Showed me that love is not bad as it seems

He loves me but i dont
I will love you endlessly but to him i wont
How could i be such a dumb?
From the pain you've caused me im already numb

Then you continue loving her
Not minding my presence here
If only walls could speak
Then he will tell me whom i should pick

I continue myself for being blind
All saints day have been forgotten in my mind
Because everyday i'm already suffering from grief
Not minding anyone as time drifts..

He gave me a rose while u gave me a torn
He gave me light while you watch me burn
Why are you so blinded with my emotion?
Why cant you take Mr. truth's revelation?

December begins to froze the air
While me here sitting wounded in a stair
I gave you heaven while she gave you hell!
She gave you thunderstorm while i gave you bell

Here i am with this comfort and care
While you treat me like a crap and so unfair
You once told me you care for me but now you dont
Why you keep on telling me to forget you when you know **** well i wont?

Again i'm trapped in a love chain
Where it brought me a hundred folds pain
I love you but you love her
He loves me but why am i crying here?

I just wished to start a year with you
But you wished to spent it with her too
I gave you my love but you take it away
Now i will give it to a man who will love me every single day..

Sometimes we needed fantasy
To keep us going tru life's harsh reality
We needed to dream big dreams
To keep us awake
We needed affection to make us stronger
Keeping us real not fake..

I cut myself & i will cut it over and over again                                                            ­    
until i cant feel anymore pain                                                             ­                     
i can still smell your breathe u ******* dumb                                                            
­brings back nightmares i wanna get numb

i am in so much rage i cant breath
you are a ******* parasite even in my sleep!!
i abhor you, i loathed you so bad
never i had felt so ******* mad!

you used to be my hero used to be my ******* friend
but turn into a monster a ******* dangerous fiend hate the ******* life in you i wish you were dead
get off my ******* mind get off my ******* head!!