Why are we leaving?
Why are we scattering?
Why are we screaming?
Why is there blood?
Whats going on?

What is wrong with me?
Why do I hurt?
Why do you hurt ME?
You beat me for what reason?
Was I not what you wanted?
Do you want me dead?
I don't mind if you hate me
I just want to be loved
I'm only four
Whats wrong with me
For you to do this to me?
I thought i was the love of your life
The one you would always love?
Is this going to go on forever?
Please stop
I don't like when people
Ask about the bruises



I'm ten now, Dad
You still hit me and bruise me
I think this is going to go on forever
You are abusing me
I didn't realize back then
You hate me don't you dad?
You want me to die
You make me bleed
You're such an *******
Why did you **** mom of you didn't want me?
You LIVE for my demise
I cant wait until you ******* leave
Go back to your job, *******
I'm smart now
I could tell
But this is making me stronger
I'm testing myself how long in going to let this happen



I'm sixteen now, Dad
Two more years
Then I don't have to talk to you
You are sexually abuse me now
You make me trust no one, Dad
You disgust me
Go **** mom
Isn't she good enough?
You ended up getting me pregnant
What am I supposed to do now?
You got your daughter pregnant
Congrats Dad
I'm not having this baby
You took it to far
This has gone on for FAR to long
Are you proud?
Your Daughter is pregnant with your baby
You really ****** this one up didn't you?
I'm telling someone you did this

They scream louder this time
There's nothing I can do
I am everything they never wanted
It's so clear to me now

Pulsing music from my iPod
Drowns Their voices out
I know that wont stop the fight
Just from you hearing it

I cant help but think of when they were happy
I wonder if it was my fault
If I had just been beautiful
Mom would have tried to halt
If had gotten straight A's
Dad would have cared
Instead of hurting me

I've tried so long for them to see
All I've ever wanted them to be
What every other family always had
But my cries and pleas have only left me
Hopeless, Broken, Sad

Once again I open that drawer
I sadly know to well
Grab that blade
To solve everything
At least for now
I lift my sleeve
Just one cut
I close my eyes shut

One tear slips down my vulnerable face
Then the flashbacks
Once again
Of the times where my father made sure I knew
No one will ever want me

I let that blade break through my skin
I hope to God that I'll eventually be okay