i wanted to tell her i never loved her
but i did and still do
i wanted to tell her she was noting to me
but she is everything to me
i wanted to tell her that i dont think about her
but thats a lie she is all i think about
no one wants us together
they say she brings me sadness and unhappiness
but they dont see she is my everything my heart and soul, my other half, everything i ever wanted,

The sadness over takes the body and its hard to stop,
the sadness hurts so bad,
and  taking the blade to your skin and making yourself bleed
just to make the pain go away,
but wait the pain is still there
the pain you left me with the hurt that will never go away,
I gave you my heart and you gave me a knife,  
you took my heart and through it on the floor like it was trash
I could have gave my heart to someone that really cared,
the blood is dripping on the floor
slowly and you start to count
one cut two cuts three cuts
and you keep counting  up
and all you can  remember is the pain
that was left,
and all you do is cry……..

I realize that now your gone.....
Your never coming back
Your happy now
I'm sorry
I'm disappointment

I remember the way it felt when the cold metal slid across my wrist,
The way the blood flowed down my arms,
The way the pain was slowly going away,
I needed you,
And you told me to go away......

your like the tide
your beautiful
and hard to resist
but the minute i
come running to you
you pull away

most people think the worst thing in life is to end up all alone
but it isnt.......
the worse thing in life is to end up surrounded by people who make you feel all alone

I  hate  you = I love you

I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Read your words
Hear your voice
Hold you close
And feel your warmth..

And I have those moments
When all I want to do is
Finally drown
In this ocean
Of endless sadness
And just slip into gray..

Right now
I feel both
And I need you here
To lie to me and say
Everything is ok
And you're going to stay..

i wonder what my parents would say if they found out i cry  each  *day

i had this dream where everything was falling apart around me, like all my friends hated me, my family disowned me, i lost myself, i woke up in tears realizing that dream is slowly coming true.....

today would have been 8 months that we have been together
i miss "us"
the other day you texted me and said you missed me?
do you really?
you hurt me, you broke my heart
but it was already broken when i met you
i thought you would be the one to fix it
but you broke it more
why?

You told me you were never leaving,
Now look you left,
The moment when i need you the most,
The moment that kills me the most,
I turn around and see you know where to be found,
You told me that you would never leave,
What a lie you could create,

when i look at her, i feel worthless
i wanna cry
i feel like im nothing
i feel empty
i feel nothing inside
i feel lost
but when i look away
i break into more pieces
i cry
i go home and all i do is cry
then paint and beautiful pictures all over my body
seeing her kills me
i cant take it anymore
i just want to stop breathing and make all this pain go away

when i look at myself i feel......
fat
worthless
ugly
a  nobody
unneeded
stupid
i feel like i have no  reason  to  be  *here

when you just want to say im done,
but there is that one person begging for you to stay  
so you think about how happy that person will be without you in there life
but they dont see that
all you can do at this time is cry
your make up is running down your face
you cant take it anymore
you love that person the death and back but you cant take the pain
it hurts so bad
your write her a goodbye letter telling her how much you love you
then all you hear is the phone ring ring ring you answer it
its her shes crying telling you how much she needs you, how much you mean to her, how much she loves you, she is begging you not to leave her
your crying even harder
she made you promise not to leave her
and you said "i promise as long as you become mine

i looked at the blood flowing from my body, i see that i'm no good, i see trails for tears dripping from peoples faces when they see my soulless body lay there just being still, they wept over my motionless body, asking and scream why did i leave, maybe its because i wasn't happy, my only moment of happiness is when he was there next to me, my mama told me you don't need a man to be happy, and shes right, but when that man took everything you had left in you, it felt like there was nothing left, my days got longer, my nights got harder, my smile faded, my laugh didn't exist anymore the little pride, the little happiness i had was now going, and no i'm dead, so please stop crying over my selfless body, be happy now you can live free

why does it hurt every time i see her
why does it hurt when i hear her voice
why does it when i hear her name
why does it hurt every time she smiles at me
why does it hurt when she looks at me
why does it hurt when she turns around and walks away
why does it hurt!!!!!

you sit there crying because she left you
she did the same thing to me
she left me there crying, she told me she loved me and she would never leave me
but now look shes with you hurting you instead of me your crying because you wont let her go, i told you what she did to me and how much she hurt me, you know how you took her back after she said sorry and she will never do it again but look she did it again she left you probably ******* another ***, but you will take her back, and she's saying the same things  she said to me to you, she is lying to you, she wants to break you down where no one else could have you because your sad, but look get over her all, all she is  doing is hurt you and you can stop the hurt only if you let her go