A sleepless night as I lie awake
Searching vastly for a reason
Murmur of a distant memory
Incoming yet another season.

A meal shared with a smile
Welcoming touch, it didn’t last
Jealousy kept close but far from denial
Left with nothing but the past

Vulnerabilities, anxiety, pain
Sharing a variety of emotions
Experiences, past lovers, promises made in vain
Little did I know I’d never see her again

Miscalculating an ardent lover
Simultaneously a sociopathic
Materialistic, manipulative
Herself above another

My interest sufficed
Despite no good things to gain
She had me bested
I could no longer be the same

Misty eyes while typing on a blurry screen
Willpower gained to sever the connection
Letting her go in a painful scene
A bittersweet goodbye
One more step in the right direction.

This year all of us want to find hope
We want to find love
Here we are with sufficient time to elope
We patiently wait for our diamond in the rough

Decisions made upon belief and trust
Our heart will never falter
The last thing we ever want is lust
The life we choose we cannot falter

Do they appear at the end of your search?
After timeless 5 minute rapport?
Maybe you should approach them first?
Or will you simply ignore?

Go ahead and have faith
Decisions aren’t made by their due
They are made my fate
They are made by you