The season has changed, with a heavy heart.
Outside, the vinings grow
Twisting quietly inside.
I used to feel like a witness -
Watching love spring from behind my kitchen window
wishing I was encased in the bloom.
I would
lock the back door and
shut the windows tight,
out of fear that the twists might entwine
into the walls of my life.
So much fear for so much beauty.
Love, I know now, is a release;
to give up -
an acceptance and surrender to decay.
I used to think that love is growth
as if love is to guide oneself, to light up the path in the night time.
as if love was
to assume that I know how best for you to bloom.
Love is freedom
an acceptance of what is.
Love is the pathway, not the light.
An unshakable trust in what is,
not what might be.
Too often we confuse it with it's opposite - possession.
'I am yours and you are mine' -
What words of such desperate fear they are