I sense your eyes on my flesh,
like a creature seeking through tattered mesh.
I know you're there, stalking and hunting,
My heart races and my knees go weak.
I fall to the ground unable to speak.
I feel the claws start to tear my lung,
I search around trying to find my gun.
Suddenly all I hear is bang, bang, bang.
I look down in cold surprise...
You have won this fight.
I fall to the ground dead. But it is not the end.
I have to be true, I refuse to lie to you.
My Father's heart beat descends and my own heart begins to mend.

With courage I stand.
You will not  **** me, you demon within,
You will come out at my command!
No, longer will I fear you, No longer do I give you a place to stay!
You must get out and leave today!
I am healed! Your power over me is repealed.
My spirit is renewed. Cut the attitude, and get yourself out the door,
And while your at it take your little friends with you,
There's a new sheriff in town; he put me in a gown;
He made me his bride, it doesn't look like I lied;
When I told you your power here is no more, so get yourself out the door.

The battle is won, and I'll fight everyday.
I'll do whatever I have to do stay;
I will have victory! I will never give up.
I was born for so much more,
than these useless anxieties; these demons inside of me;
Of their oppression I will fight till I die,
I promise; no lie. I will never give up. Never. Never. Never.

What does it mean,
When he doesn't come home.
What does it mean,
When I'm lost and alone.
What does it mean,
If his love is postponed.
Or when he never gives it at all.

Define for me please,
Beauty, elegance, divinity.
I've heard it said, "A picture is worth a thousand words"
Define that for me please!
Am I worth a thousand words?
Am I beautiful, elegant, divine.
Have I reached the mark, or crossed the line?

Let me know,
If you love me so,
That I can stop seeking and hoping.
If I could just hear,
that I am good enough.
Let me know if you want to go,
Leave my heart alone,

Give my soul a break.
Yes, my essence cries out in pain.
There's only so much I can take.
This suffering is driving me insane,
If you're to stay be with me,
If not let me be.
I can't take this another day.

Alas I see another way.
Someone is here to take your place.
I need not a lawyer He'll defend my case.
From before this day,
He witnessed your crimes,
He's replaced all of your lies,
And left me a prize.

I take a deep breath, and look into the sky.
I think to myself I wish I wasn't shy.
I wish you were here to speak through the night.
I wish you were here and my fears put to flight.



There is nothing but death and the shadow of gloom.
Terrifying like a witch riding off on her broom.
There is no comfort for my tears.
No warm hand to be held through these years.
No words to convey my sorrow so bold.
While I watched with a sadness as to death you had rode.



I pray its not the end, but a beginning of sort.
I pray once again to see you at the port.
I pray for your safety and hope for the best.
I pray you'll stay well and gets lots of rest.
I pray you'll stay focused at the hard work ahead.
I pray I'll remember all the words you had said.



I hope not to see you in a hospital bed.
The thought of that scene fills my whole heart with dread.
You're brave and you're strong, I know you'll be well.
You're courage is unmatched it's like it's a spell.
I trust you explicitly, my whole pray is for you.
So come home soon, and in one whole piece too.


I love you indeed, in a jolly good way.
When you come home, it shall be a jubulent day.
Until that fine time as you come back for me.
What a day, what a day when your face I shall see!
It'll be Christmas time as when you had left.
Only this time from me, you won't be a theft.

My heart races when I know you're there.
My soul turns when I'm rescued from a snare.
When you whisper in my ear, your peace surrounds me.
When the enemy gives panic, you calm me like the sea.
When I'm imprisoned by greed, you break those chains.
You give me your blood in exchange for my pains.
When my sorrows groan and I cry out to you,
You take my sorrows and dry my tears.
Even when I run still you pursue.
No matter how I betray you, your mercy's are new.
My one and only, may I be found in you.

Too many thoughts and no where to  go.
I want to scream; on my mouth I need tape.
Desperation sets in the longer I wait,
Can this be worse than a first date?
Will I survive this?
Can I leave the state?
That wouldn't help though,
It wouldn't make the demons go.
I take a deep breath, I try to relax.
My feelings turn to bubbles,
I try not to see doubles.
Before I know it I'm in the lead,
Running away with all speed.
I made it though, I survived the fire.
Now I have my objects of desire.
Back to my car, I'm safe and sound.
Soon my heart ceases to pound.
I'm alive I survived.