In two months it will be two years since i saw you last
It's not fair, it's killing me
You deserve better than to grow up without me

I look out the window and watch the rain
These days without you cause me so much pain
I wanna run away from it all
Only thing i do now is sit by the phone and pray that you call

You were so little when I first met you
You deserve better than to go through this too
Five years old and still had a blankie
Without it you would get so cranky

Now your what, 10? you grew up so fast
All I do now is suffer through the days that go past
We would fight, but thats what bonded us together
Remember when you found me that beautiful white feather

I have so many memories with you
I wish i could make some that are new
Now the days go by
As our memories drop like flys

Sled riding today was fun
The wind blew through my hair
It was such a rush
Now I sit by the fire
As my toes de-thaw

What a great day
Snow everywhere
This is what winter is about
The fun

Laughing all the way down
That slippery hill
Crashing into fluffy white happiness
Getting cold
But not caring one bit

Now the snow is going away
I'm getting so sad
My happiness is melting

I move to Antarctica
I love the snow so much
The penguins are cute
But I miss my friends

Next winter,
I tell myself
I'll go back

It gets colder
I get homesick
I get sick
There's a big storm

No way home
I think
I lay there in my lovely snow
Drifting away
Where I'm happy

Four years ago you were mine
Time stood still
As I looked into your eyes

All I wanted
Pressed against my lips
So perfect
Absolute bliss

Fast forward to now
Basically strangers
Everything is different
From “I love you” to “I hate you”

Don’t tell me you need me
And ask me to stay
Or give me that smirk
None of this is okay

You’re just another boy
You don’t mean ****
Yet I think I need you
The longing is sick

Using me isn’t cute
My feelings aren’t a game
I don’t know why
You had to change

Listen to me
My whispers are desperate
You took my breathe
Until none was accepted

One day this pain will go away
One day everything will be okay
When I think of you my stomach hurts
My heart feels even worse

Everyone keeps telling me to let go
But I can't, for reasons only you know
I want to scream, I want to cry
Inside I feel like I might die

Thinking of your eyes, your smile
Will make me happy for a little while
The pain will always come back
I feel like my heart might crack

Please don't leave me alone forever
One day, I promise we will be togeher

I wish you missed me like i missed you
You easily found someone new
I don't know how to let you go
I miss the days we would play in the snow

I still love you with all my heart
I used to think nothing could tear us apart
Almost 2 years since I saw you last
Here I am still living in the past

Why can't I let you go
Only you would know
This is killing me inside
If only our paths would collide

Replacing you isn't as easy as you think
I wish I could bring you back with a wink
I will never let you go
Just letting you know..

The night of stolen kisses
That my lips didn't deserve
Carresses you wanted for her
Touches that would later hurt

The night you held me
In a way I cannot forget
You looked at me like I was everything
But I wasn't what you wanted

The night of mistakes
That will forever haunt me
Sleeping next to you
Was everything and nothing

The night of many things
That turned into losing you..

You keep avoiding me
And treating me like spoiled tea

All you do is push me away
I know you will need me one day

All the things i do for you
You repay me by making me blue

I look out the window and watch the rain
I think of you and welcome the pain
Everything I do requires so much effort
You wouldn't notice though, you found someone better

I think back to the memories all the time
And realized how much I loved you, when you weren't mine

You were my everything with those big beautiful eyes

I had a crush on you from the start
I let myself believe that nothing could tear us apart
Sometime in March was the last time I saw you
You probabaly don't think about that day

You found someone new
You found someone better
You found someone who had it all together
You found someone who was pretty
You found someone with no self-pity

I haven't moved on
I don't know how
So take  bow

You were lucky enough to find someone else
Someone better

I took your number out of my phone
Just cant look at it anymore
These months pass by
And my heart is so sore

When your little, you rely on parents
To tuck you in and read you a story
All I needed was you, now it's apparent
That i was wrong

Everytime i see you with her
I think of all the good times we had
It's impossible to find someone new
When all think about is you

My heart is so sore
Like it's been trying so hard
To keep me alive
After you left me to die

If I could explain to you why it all went down
I could easily get you back

But you ignore me so much
It's hard to bare
My heart is so sore
And you don't even care

So I tuck my self in
I think it's gonna be a long night
Cuz I can't get you off my mind
I can tell you i was right

So goodnight to you, my love
I hope you know this is for you
Even though it will never leave this paper
So just remember, now my heart is in two..

As she found him
She lost herself
Everything given
Was also taken

All these years
Devoted to nothing
Wasted on promises
Drenched in lies

When he leaves
As he often does
What does she have
Without him

She is connected
By words
And ideas
And *******

Attached
With thoughts
And strings
Leading nowhere

Forfeiting happiness
To feel alive
For one single night
As he feels success

Devoting her life
To someone sick
And twisted
Who doesn’t give a ****

She can only help herself
And find herself
Rid herself
Of this unfair lifestyle

All these months
You've been in my head
Screaming to get out
When that's what I dread

Your long hair
Used to drive me crazy
But you cut it short
Now the memory's hazy

Things used to be different
We didn't care
Now everything's changed
And that I can't bare

You're lost in my mind
I don't know who you are  
The boy that used to kiss me
Now those lips are so far

Those nights we had
Are lost at sea
Waiting to be forgotten
Completely

You left us in July
I didn't even get to say goodbye
You caught me from falling
And saved my tears when I was bawling

I know I made a mistake
But when we lost you I really did break
Please come back
Your love is what I lack

Heaven doesn't need you yet..
I bet
Sixteen is just too young
For everything to become undone

When the sky's turn from grey to blue
Will you come back to me
When the birds start singing and the flowers bloom
Will you come back to me

When the nights get shorter
Will you come back to me
When all is found that we once lost
Will you come back to me

Lost love letters
Crammed into boxes
Forgotten first kisses
Left in the backseat
Eyes like oceans
Crushing
The beating drum
I so rely on
Souls disconnected
By distance
Wasteland of old photos
Fading with stolen memories

The sound of your name is so worn out
Like a road I know too well
Getting lost every once in a while
When the thought of you appears
Like a deer
In the middle of the street
I almost hit you head on
But stop just in time
To get you off my mind

I hate
That you left me
Drowning
In your lies

I hate
That you don't care
I was always
By your side

I hate
That my bestfriend
Turned into
A monster

I hate
That we don't talk
Any longer

I hate
Myself
For letting you go

I hate
You
For making me hate
All the things
I used to love