Friends shouldn't be afraid
to be themselves in fear of being judged or abandoned.
Most of my friends,
I'm afraid I'm on the verge of loosing.

Either if it was a dumb mistake
or something I've done wrong; they'd make me sorry.
But I know,
I won't loose you.

I know I have a friend,
who I can be open with and be someone I am really.
I can tear off the mask,
and never press delete.

Miles apart and hours behind,
it seems like it was never meant to happen.
But we took control of our own fates,
and pushed our lives together either way.

You know I love you,
and I know you love me.
So why is it so strange to me
to finally have someone who won't judge me.

I try to be the friend,
that no one ever was to me.
Maybe one day,
I'll have someone who cares as much as me.

I try to be the heart-mender,*
that no one cares to be.
Because it all ends the same,
with the heart breaking and no where to flea.

I try to be the class-clown,
that everyone adores with exceptions.
For some reason,
I was still being called a boring deception.

I try and I try to be someone I'm not,
that's the main reason for my style.
Because nobody will ever remember,
the girl with the shy smile.