If this is a movie,
Let me tell you I want my money back

Cause last time you ever
wrote me into your story
I was the girl
who could not make it to the interval


If this is a book that you are reading
Lemme turn the page

Cause last time you ever
read me something
I had to wake up
to find you missing

If this is nothing but a game to you
Lemme tell you I don't want to play anymore

Cause last time we played hide-n-seek
You never started looking
And I had to yell
" I'm over here"

If this is a life that I'm living
Lemme tell you I Want to end it

Cause last time I heard
Life is only for the living
And I have already
started rotting

If this is an expectation, I'm supposed to stand up to
Lemme tell you I'm already slipping

Cause last time you
held me in your arms
I felt a noose tightening around,
Strangling and choking me

If it is death what you are scared of
Lemme tell you, death is the only privilege we all can afford

Cause last time I opened my eyes
I saw how biased life was,
Every one thinks they have a plan
But Life tricks us all

I am worried.
Today, I caught myself smiling.
The cause?
I had been thinking of you-
The sound of your laugh,
Your goofy jokes,
The way your lips would feel
Against my own.

I'm going mad over you:
When I try to sleep,
Memories of your voice
Flood my mind;
When sleep embraces me,
You're in my dreams...
Only the good ones, of course;
Nothing about you is a nightmare.

I am afraid of the way you make me feel-
Afraid I won't be able to
Forget you.
But most of all,
I'm afraid that
I don't really like you.

Why did you have to do this?
Why now?
Of all times.
Maybe I guess I shouldn't have poured my heart out towards you
I can't really blame you
You never experienced anything like this before
But all I want is to rebuild the trust I lost with you.
I want to tell you
But I just couldn't

Maybe you don't know how it feels to be depressed.

I've counted every firefly
Waiting for you
One
You have stars in your eyes
Two
And stardust in your lungs
Three
Your voice will drip with honey
Four
My counting's just begun
Sixteen
Every day will be and adventure
Seventeen
I'll travel the world with you
Eighteen
We won't have to leave the bed
Nineteen
My world will be you
Forty-three
We'll compare scars
Forty-four
And swap the best stories
Forty-five
We won't care about accomplishments
Forty-six
We're each other's greatest glories
One hundred and eight
I'm getting lonely dear
One hundred and nine
I counted this firefly twice
One hundred and ten
The waiting will be worth it
One hundred and eleven
You'll be my only vice
One thousand and twenty-one
I don't think you're coming
One thousand and twenty-two
I lost count a long time ago,
I hope you're counting too.