Walking around the places
All I see are blurry faces
Am I out of my mind?
Because I do not feel real
Body and soul are saparated
I am levitating above my body
I do not feel alive anymore

Thoughts racing
Pupils dilated
Put on my eyeliner
On ****** eyes
No sleep for nights
Red lipstick
Sweet smell of parfume
To cover the smoke
Sun shines on my pale skin
My whole body shaking
And then I realise
And then I greet
Another manic episode

I became an addict at such a young age
I just wanted to numb the pain
Calling doctor every week or so
For a new prescription
Lying to my family that I am fine
Tears and sweat soaking my shirt
Flashbacks become alive
Withdrawals make it worse
I just need to survive another night
Through this burning hole

I am falling apart
Into tiny little pieces
Like when a glass shatters
You cannot fix it
I am falling apart
And you cannot fix me

I am so tired
I am so drowned out by my thoughts
And then I ask myself
Where were you when I needed you
You choose everyone else
I was always your last choice
Your lies were so soft so easy to believe in
At first
Then you just kept breaking me
And now
I am dissapearing like a ghost

Show me all your scars and bruises
I want to know your story
Did anyone prepare you for life?
Do you sleep at night?
What do you dream of?
Who did this to you and why?
Can you handle it?
Will you be able to hold on?
Tell me all your stories
I want to know how much we can handle
Did someone take your inner child away?
Did you make someones soul die?
Did you make your own soul die?
Are you scared of life?
Tell me all
How do you feel?
Tell me about love, God and life
I wonder when my time will come
What will be mine last exit

I fake a smile
And everyone is happy
I fake a laugh
And they laugh with me
I am so tired of having a mask
Underneath a mask
At the night I take every mask off
Smile turns into frown
Laugh turns into a scream
Shiny eyes turn into ****** red ones

Where were you
When I was at my lowest
Love me when I am happy
Hate me when I am sad
I miss you
But I don't need you