nevaeh

nevaeh Jan 2021

i remember nights of running through the grass
catching the moths that fluttered around the dim street lights
blowing dandelion fluff into the dark sky

the sound of bare feet on endless black rivers of asphalt
the hum of late night drivers on the highway just a few fences over
hushed laughter echoing back from the empty night

i remember when we were kids
when math was easy and our hearts were free
unburdened by love or lust

i remember being cheerful and sad
but never both at once, i remember being simple
when everyone said what they meant

when i went on cute little dates with pretty girls
hold her hand and buy her a soda, going nowhere, but having fun
drop her off under the porch light and kiss her cheek

i remember sleepovers and secrets
whispers through the dark, when friends were just friends
when joining the circus was just a dream

before addictions and *** and heartbreak
i remember the humble, effortless, quiet nights
saying goodnight on good nights

remember when nighttime was magical and fun? now it all just seems so heavy.

#good #night

nevaeh Jan 2021

no. 331

if you sit and stare
let your vision blur
bad things start to look
a whole lot prettier

#ah

nevaeh Jan 2021

how easy it could be

i sit here, staring blankly at a screen
thinking, just how easy it could be

an arm draped over a shoulder
a thoughtful gift, with a handmade touch
the simple acts of kindness you see everyday
let me see just how easy it could be
to love a person

i want to love the way her hands move over paper
and the way his heart is always open
i want to love a strangers kindness
and a friends strong laugh or gentle smile

i want to look into their faces
and see humanity
i want to see a person, full of emotion and opinion and life
i want to see something that can be loved

i want to be something
that can be loved

by friends, family, her. i want to be a better person, for better people.

#love

nevaeh Jan 2021

hypocrite

maybe i could stand
to look outside of myself
for moment too

im sorry i should have thought before i said that. you're fine, im being a ****.

nevaeh Jan 2021

so im kinda mad but its cool im fine

in case you forgot
i am a person
and i have a whole life
outside the hour a day you see me.

i exist as more than a ****** love story
i was a person before i loved you
and im still one now that i dont

im sorry, but i dont have time to deal with it
im cool with hanging out, talking, whatever
but the little bubble you've formed
it doesn't have room for me
and i don't have room for it

try to think a little outside of yourself for once

#****

nevaeh Jan 2021

i made myself lonely

i abandoned you, so long ago
and i left my heart and soul abandoned too.

i built myself a life
with nothing and no one in it.
i tried to hide from the things i could do.

i made myself scared,
too scared to come crawling back,
too scared to assume that anyone could still love me.

i was scared to face you,
too scared to see what i had done, so i hid.
i was a coward, and an *******. i can never take that back.

i thought it was for the best.
i did it because i didn't want to believe
that anyone could love me, without hurting me in the end.

i tried to save myself.
but left you alone, with nothing to hold on to,
and i became the very thing that i had feared the most.

im sorry

#lonely

nevaeh Jan 2021

frog rock

wandering and stumbling
along the way
through the dense woods
on a cool sunny day
her soft skin and sweet smile
the fresh breeze through her hair
so simple and calming
the smell of earth in the air
deep green and bright blue
wood and birds and stone
its so easy when i'm with her
to not feel so alone

@ mother nature

#nature