if you dont want me around
please, dear god, let me know
because right now
one less person to worry about
is not a ******* problem for me.

i have enough **** to deal with
so if you're done with me
just go.

i'll still be here when you come back.

ive been dreaming
all week long
dancing around
like every word is a song
ive been dreaming
of you and me
about what could happen
if i left for the sea

one day i will have everything you need
one day i will make myself enough for you
maybe even sometime soon
and when that day comes
if there are still mutual feelings
we could be something amazing

but right now
i know im not enough for you
and i dont want you to hurt yourself
waiting around for me

i want you to be happy
and have fun
and do whatever you need to do
to maintain your mental health
because it IS important

yes, i will be extraordinarily jealous
of every hand you hold
that isn't mine
but you deserve better than me
(dont get me wrong, im not going anywhere)
and it's makes me very happy
that you would probably deny that fact
endlessly

i love you
whatever that means to you
i love you in every way
and if i have to
i will spend the rest of my life
trying to make you as happy
as you make me

sometimes it's easy to forget
why you love someone
how to love someone
that you love them at all

sometimes you have to remember
that love is more than making out
it's not always intense or passionate
it can't always be like that

sometimes love is just
being there for someone
being a friend

sometimes "i love you"
means im here for you
i care about you
and i want you to be happy

sometimes it's really that simple

i know i have no right
to be jealous
to be impulsive
to keep ******* things up

i wish we could talk
but i don't want to make things worse
(i usually do)
i dont want you to start pushing me away again

im stupid
i say stupid stuff

usually to get a reaction
because im an attention *****
a narcissist
whatever

i dont really have much to say now
i love you
i guess
as stupid as that is
it's true