Drowning in depression
I could not swim
It was deep, very very deep
I could not see the depth
*Darkness, I am sinking

How dare you to comeback just when I decided to forget you?

one minute i’m doing okay.
      and the next i feel like,
    the walls are closing in.
i’m being caved in inside my own head.
    and my heart starts sounding
        like a thousand drums all at once to me.

•••
*Dancing lights
Only hurt my eyes

Screaming and loud music
Disgusting to my ears

Vodkas, cocktails and whiskeys
Never wanted to feel frisky

***, dope, cigarettes
I will only regret

Dancing, party, bar
Never wanted to go that far

Yes I have been to parties
But never will it become my thing

Maybe my past life has an old soul
Who finds comfort in her own hole

Yes, sometimes an anti-social
And sometimes interacting is crucial

So next time you ask me out
Make sure you know what I'm about

Coffee or tea, movies and books
Exhibits and museums let's take a look

A good music or a storytelling
A walk in a park or just talking

Pick me a flower, don't buy me a bouquet
Just hold my hand and always stay