i must walk day after day in the footprints of no other i am my own before i am yours and this you must remember that long before you arrived i was just the same the same pretty, joyful girl you call me to this day
i must admit you've helped me grow in ways that no one can but i myself will shine each day with or without your hand
The sound of cars pass by my window I sit and think why am I here? Am I supposed to be a good person? Am I supposed to be a criminal?
I look at the sun coming thru the window All I see is my darkness The pain I feel with in My torment My heart beats My head feel like it’s on fire Every time I here someone say something I’m like you’re a liar.
My crutch My darkness will win The screams The laughter from the demons in my head As I lay here in my bed I ask out for the strength to be dead.
End the darkness just to see the light If anyone is listening please help end this fight. My soul takes that endless flight Please save me from this hellish fight.
Nothing to hold on to I let go As I fall and then the dark sets in Could it be true is this the end?
It’s real the struggle within the pain is never ending.
Play victim Make me lose my head And say something I'll regret You know you're in the wrong So focus on the former And don't let the latter kick in Anything but the matter Ignoring all the questions So you can play blind to the facts Hide behind your mask Created from turning your back I'll hide behind mine Created by doubt and always bringing up the past I wish I could scream and shout like you
Share about this pain in my heart The aching of my soul
But I don’t I keep it bottled up So full I fear it will explode Shatter into a million pieces Scattered around me Like the wreckage, Or aftermath of a war
A war against myself Long fought But I don’t think I’m winning
Most days I feel as if I will always be losing Losing myself
Phantom whispers caress me Their volatile words shock me The painful spasms of my heart beat in time with my thoughts swarmed in fears
Fears that I am not good enough That all that I am, will never be enough
These fears take form Until they are all that I can see