Mama maybe you want what is best for me, but I crave the opposite
I feel like a watch nobody bothered to fix
Still pretty, but unable to function
I feel like everything is a mystery,
But we always knew I was no problem solver,
See you did that for me
And now I'm spinning in circles, trying to find the answers I can not find for myself

That first time he touched me, I could have screamed,
Demanding to know where he has been, or if fate forgot about our destiny, temporarily…
Because in that moment his hands were all I needed
and I had needed them for so very long, that affection… provided direction, for a soul who was wandering lost for what felt like eternity

I have this looming feeling the world will end... after my next breath, next step, next failure
So I constantly expect this implosion, my awaiting doom, this cosmic disaster  
I sense the negativity, look at each strangers pale miserable face and I breathe....
Waiting for the world to end

My pathetic body breathes,
As I watch you suffer,
Your pale begging frame  
Tears me in half, like a jagged knife puncturing any possibility of happiness
Love filled words sit within me
But I guess I am too scared to fill the air with my sentimentality

When you were alive,
You told me to be brave,
But now I feel like a lost little girl
Trying to find you in a supermarket
Strangers keep asking me if I am ok
People tell me it will be alright
But all I want is you

I gaze at the swift sparrow,
As it attacks each task with such speed,
And yet remains graceful
It curls within the air,
Its sweet melody caressing my heart
Only stopping, very briefly
Maybe it knows a secret,
The art, of keeping on