you are there
even when i
dont really want
you around,
but, in those times
i need you most.
you beautiful,
gorgeous,
breathtaking.
and don't deny it
because you took
mine away,
no matter what anyone
may say,
you took mine away.
my affections
for you,
never
wavers
you my dear
are my favorite.
i don't desire
you because the
gifts you give,
except the one,
of your love.
just because
your not gay,
and neither am i,
doesn't mean
we can't be
gay together.

you were the first
boy that i said
'i love you' to and
really meant it...
and i've chosen
to never tell
another man that
i  love him.
because
people say
' i love you'
to get what they want
and it's accepted
and i will not
so who ever i
find myself with next
will have to except

that society's perception
of love, does not fit mine
but trust me,
i will find a way to covey
what i feel for the next,
it will just be in a
less destructive way.

flatter yourself
when you hear that
i won't tell another
man that i love him
but
bring yourself back down
when you're laughed at
because what we had
was stupid, childish, and destructive
and i don't wish to bring those
words into my next relationship
because those words are
the description of 'i love you' .

because not only have i left you behind,
but i've left all my 'i love you's' behind too.

we weren't, aren't and never will be, in love

walk with our feet
work with our hands
speak with our mouths
see with our eyes
hear with our ears
           &
fall to our knees in anguish
cause violence with our hands
break people down with our words
cry tears of pain
hear only the things we want to
           &
jump on our feet with happiness
comfort with our hands
encourage with our words
cry tears of joy
hear the giggles and laughter of innocent children