you were the first
boy that i said
'i love you' to and
really meant it...
and i've chosen
to never tell
another man that
i  love him.
because
people say
' i love you'
to get what they want
and it's accepted
and i will not
so who ever i
find myself with next
will have to except

that society's perception
of love, does not fit mine
but trust me,
i will find a way to covey
what i feel for the next,
it will just be in a
less destructive way.

flatter yourself
when you hear that
i won't tell another
man that i love him
but
bring yourself back down
when you're laughed at
because what we had
was stupid, childish, and destructive
and i don't wish to bring those
words into my next relationship
because those words are
the description of 'i love you' .

because not only have i left you behind,
but i've left all my 'i love you's' behind too.