I miss the smell of your skin
The thoughts of forever
The warmth of your cheek against mine
As you held me
And made me safe
I miss your arms around my waist
I found shelter in them
The taste of your lips
An unspoken promise
I miss the symphony of butterflies that burned inside when you spoke my name
The way your fingertips intertwined with my mine
The emotional intimacy
I miss the way you saw me
Not for who I was
But for who I could be
I miss loving you with the lights on
Showing you my secret scars
I miss the sweet serenity that lives inside of you
How you could calm the raging seas of my heart
And bring me peace
I miss the possibility of eternity

I wonder if you think of me
Do you remember me fondly?

I sleep wrapped in memories of you
And weep silently  
The loss
Not of what was
But of what could have been
And I allow myself to miss you.

I miss the possibility of eternity.

I pray for rain
So that I can place my head on yours
And together we can meditate upon the ambience of the soothing trickle against my window.

I beg for storms
So that we don't need an excuse to lie in bed for endless hours and stop time and the world, then lose our minds in each other.

Oh I hope it blizzards
Then we can snuggle under my blankets and get entangled amongst each other like glorious vines on a house.

I plead for thunder
Because then I could lay with you in the absolute darkness, and see the beautiful shards of light spark, and hear the thunderous roar as we lay excited clinging  on to the very bones of each other.

I dream of all this and more,
But for right now I just can't wait to see your face again.

Today
I almost allowed myself to miss you.
And then I remembered who you were.

I want to lose myself in the midst of your uninhibited ****** bliss
Kiss, nibble, and lick every inch
Baby I want to be a member of team **** up your sheets
Attack me like a tiger in heat
I want to taste the passion and lust on your lips
Feel your electric finger tips dip into the hills and valleys of my body
I want to be unapologetically naughty and close my eyes
While you get drunk on the wine coming from between my thighs
I want all that makes you a man inside of me
Pushing me towards my peak
While I scream your name to the heavens
Harder. Faster. Don't stop.
Until we reach that climatic peak that we have both been looking for
And when we're done
I want to lay silently next to you
Panting. Sweating. Satisfied.
And when I leave
I want the scent of feverish love making
All over your sheets
An inhibition free night
A memory.

The end comes slowly
Time moves in reverse
The helpless become helpless again
The dust from which we were taken reclaims our bodies
And we cease to exist
The only thing we leave behind are those we touched
And if you're anything like me
You will leave nothing
Which begs the question
If one remembers you when you're gone
Were you ever really here?