I'm tired of trying to win at this impossible game.
All it does is leave you broken and scared.
Why does it have to be like this?
You seem to want this as much as I do.
So why don't you try too?
Why does everything have to be based on fear?
Fear of rejection, fear of cheating, fear of losing what we already have, fear of losing you.
Who cares about the what ifs.
What if we actually get closer..?
What if it is exactly what we thought..?
What if we fall in love?

Every time I say I'm done trying..
I always find my self thinking about you again.
So maybe I'm done trying to be over you.
Maybe I'm done trying to forget everything we've been through.
Maybe I'm done trying to fool myself into thinking I could live without you.
Done trying to stop thinking about you
Just in general.
I find myself thinking about you,
Even when I didn't know I was.
You'll just pop into my head,
It makes me go crazy.
Kinda like just now.
I wasn't even trying to think about you.
You weren't even on my mind.
And BAM.
You have to invade my thoughts, my heart, my mind.
It makes me insane.
Mostly because I don't think I ever invade your thoughts, heart or mind.

If you haven't figured it out by now,
Relationships are two sided.
Both sides have to put in effort.
Both sides have to want it.
I'm done with this one way deal.
I have feelings, needs, wants, just like you.
And I know you saw this coming.
Don't act surprised.
I'm tired of being a second choice, an option.
I deserve so much more.
To be someone's number one, their only one.
You do too... despite everything.
So I just hope you have a nice life.
But I'm so done trying to be in it.
Goodbye.

All I can think about is you and me,
and how we, used to be “we”.
Sometimes I just go back to the day,
when you made your way,
into my life.
All I could imagine is being your girl,
being your world.
You were everything to me,
and then I woke up one day,
to realize it was just a pipe dream.
You were more into her
than you were ever into me.
I don’t know if I was dreaming it all,
But it feels like one big bad dream.
You are not who you used to be.
Probably because we, aren’t “we”.

I don't know what to say.
I don't know what to think.
I'm so confused about...everything.
I feel so alone through…everything.
No one gets what's happening.
No one understands how I'm feeling.
I just wish you could see.
I just wish you could let me be.
Face it, You don't understand me.
Admit it, You don't listen to me.
Live with it, You don't even know me.

I guess I didn’t read the signs.
You've got someone new on your mind.
When were you gonna tell me.
Now I've gotta let this be.
You were playin me this whole time.
I neva could get you off my mind.
I was so happy, so ready.
I don't even know what I am now.
But, I hope you're happy with this.
I hope you're ready for this.
Cause when it comes down to it.
If you're happy. I'm happy.
I'll always love you.

I feel like I don’t know you anymore
You're not my sure thing anymore.
I can't go to you for anything.
Cause this ain't no pipe dream.
We've been friends for the longest time.
But I've never been able to call you mine.
I feel so awkward whenever she's there.
Maybe Its cause I know I can't compare.
I wonder what woulda happened if she stayed gone.
I know a lot of things wouldn't be wrong.
We used to be a lot closer.
I realize now we used to be a lot of things.
You will always have a special place in my heart
Even if we continue to drift farther and farther apart.

I’m so confused about us
I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus.
You’re never around when I need you.
What do you expect me to do?!
You say “I love you”
then you left me alone.
I’m learning how to survive on my own.
The rain keeps pouring down.
But I can’t hear a sound.
I don’t know what to think about you.
I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do.
You’re so confusing lately.
I think we’re falling apart.
And you can’t even see the scares.

I'm so confused about you.
Not sure what I should do.
You're only there half the time.
Like I'm not even worth a dime.
You keep sending me mixed signs.
Ones that don't even rhyme.
I just wanna know what you want.
What you dream.
But I'm not worth your time, I get it.
I do.
Then just stop messing around with my heart, with my mind.
Just go wast your own time.

I told you this would happen.
I told you not to trust her.
I knew your heart would be broken in two.
But you didn't listen,
You didn't believe.
You were head over heals for her.
So you didn't even hear me.
Now I hafta see you broken.
I hafta see you bleed.
Why couldn't you have listened?
Why couldn't you have believed?
I hate to see you like this.
Why'd you have to kiss?
I always knew she was no good.
No good for you.
Why'd you have to be so naive.
Why didn't you believe.
All I want is for you to be happy.
All I want is for you to be with me.

Some things never change.
Like the way you can make me smile just by looking at me.
The way you know just how to make my day.
How I'll always come back to you.
No matter what happened.
It's true, somethings never change.

I'm not sure what I want from you.
But do you remember when we'd tell each other everything?
Nothing was left out, nothing to hide?
I want that again.
I wanna know that you know, that you can trust me.
I'm not going to tell anyone anything.
I'm not going to break your heart.
Somehow I know you'll do the same.
I always feel so comfortable around you.
Like I can be myself around you, and know that you wont judge me.
When we were little, we used to call each other "best friends".
We said we'd stay best friends forever.
We said we'd always tell each other everything.
I've always felt odd calling someone else that.
I still refer to you as it too.
Maybe it's because, despite where life takes us in these next few years, I always wanted, knew, somehow you'd be my best friend again.
Though, maybe, I just need to let go.
Move on.
Because, no matter what I want we aren't kids anymore.
Everything doesn't go as planned in our minds.
I guess, I hope that one day you'll find someone who you trust, who you're comfortable around, and you can love.
Just be yourself.
It'll happen.

I'm not sure what to think anymore
I'm not sure if this blink will stop these tears.
I can't help but think of you and me,
and what we used to be.
The memories are playing over in my head.
As I sit here crying in my bed.
So many times you made me laugh.
So many times you made me smile.
Sometimes I lay awake in bed.
Cause I can't get you out of my head.
Honestly, I don't know what I'm feeling.
Maybe it's me, maybe I complicate it.
Maybe it's you, maybe you just don't get it.
Maybe I'm not ready for this.
Cause this truly isn't bliss.
You meant everything to me.
But maybe it wasn't meant to be.
My heart is broken in two.
All because I'm missing you.
Love is so complicated.
Maybe just overrated.
At some point I'll sort things out.
At some point I'll figure you out.
But some point is not this point.
At this point I gotta let you know.
I'm letting you go.

One day it all just fell apart.
You were the closest thing to my heart.
We went from laughing, and talking,
to ignoring, and fighting.
I don’t know how it went down.
We slowly drifted apart.
You were the best thing that happened to me.
Now all I have is me.
I lost my best friend that day,
In the most horrible way.
Growing up shouldn’t exist,
if it means splitting, the Twins.
I miss the walks.
I miss the talks.
I miss the goofing around.
You were the one person that accepted me for me.
And not for someone else.
I miss cuddling up and watching a movie.
I miss singing in the hairbrush and being all groovy.
I miss going into your room and telling you, I couldn’t sleep.
Cause I’d know you’d stay up, even if it was just for me.
I don’t know who I’d be,
if I didn’t have you.
I don’t know what I’d do,
if I was forced to live with you.
But I’ll try to move on.
I’ll try to be strong.
I’ll try to be the best me
that I could ever be.
But I miss running up and giving you hugs.
Discussing how gross are bugs.
I miss seeing your face at the dinner table.
I miss saying “I’m sorry” for whatever did.
I guess all in all.
I just miss YOU.

You make me happy every day,
In your own special way.
I can’t think about you without smiling,
Even if inside I am dying.
And I promise you boy. I ain’t lying.
There’s nothing I’d change about you.
Because you’re perfect the way you are.
There’s nothing I’d rather do.
Then be wherever you are.
If we ever couldn’t talk,
I wouldn’t know what to do.
I think I might just die.
If I couldn’t have you.
If there is one thing I hate that you do.
You are always making me love you.

I can’t get you off my mind
I think about you all the time
I keep you close to my heart
I hope we never part
You make me smile every day.
Even if you just say Hey
You’re always on my mind
It makes me feel so blind
You say that I’m Amazing
I can’t help but gazing.
Even though we are far apart.
We can be together at heart.
Some days I just stare at your eyes.
That is when the time flies.
We talk for hours and hours on end
Forever and ever my friend.
I wish we were more than this
That would be true bliss.

I don't care anymore.
I'm not playing games anymore.
I finally said my goodbyes.
I looked you straight in the eyes.
I can't live life like this.
I can't pretend this is bliss.
This experience made me stronger.
Maybe I'll live a little longer.
They call it a boyfriend for a reason.
Because everything ends in a season.
Why say love if you don't mean it.
Why say trust if you can't believe it.
The experience made me stronger.
Maybe I'll live a little longer.
Nothing is ever what you expect it to be.
So why expect, just let it be.
I've been given labels that have been hard to shake.
But the worst was your girlfriend and that took time to make.
I once was your girlfriend and that's what i wanted.
But what I want now is not to be haunted.
By the memories, I've loved.
The ones I miss and the ones i hated.
And the ones I relive.
But I wouldn't give up this experience for the world. It has made me stronger.
Maybe it will help me live, a little longer.