I'm not sure what I want from you.
But do you remember when we'd tell each other everything?
Nothing was left out, nothing to hide?
I want that again.
I wanna know that you know, that you can trust me.
I'm not going to tell anyone anything.
I'm not going to break your heart.
Somehow I know you'll do the same.
I always feel so comfortable around you.
Like I can be myself around you, and know that you wont judge me.
When we were little, we used to call each other "best friends".
We said we'd stay best friends forever.
We said we'd always tell each other everything.
I've always felt odd calling someone else that.
I still refer to you as it too.
Maybe it's because, despite where life takes us in these next few years, I always wanted, knew, somehow you'd be my best friend again.
Though, maybe, I just need to let go.
Move on.
Because, no matter what I want we aren't kids anymore.
Everything doesn't go as planned in our minds.
I guess, I hope that one day you'll find someone who you trust, who you're comfortable around, and you can love.
Just be yourself.
It'll happen.

I'm not sure what to think anymore
I'm not sure if this blink will stop these tears.
I can't help but think of you and me,
and what we used to be.
The memories are playing over in my head.
As I sit here crying in my bed.
So many times you made me laugh.
So many times you made me smile.
Sometimes I lay awake in bed.
Cause I can't get you out of my head.
Honestly, I don't know what I'm feeling.
Maybe it's me, maybe I complicate it.
Maybe it's you, maybe you just don't get it.
Maybe I'm not ready for this.
Cause this truly isn't bliss.
You meant everything to me.
But maybe it wasn't meant to be.
My heart is broken in two.
All because I'm missing you.
Love is so complicated.
Maybe just overrated.
At some point I'll sort things out.
At some point I'll figure you out.
But some point is not this point.
At this point I gotta let you know.
I'm letting you go.

One day it all just fell apart.
You were the closest thing to my heart.
We went from laughing, and talking,
to ignoring, and fighting.
I don’t know how it went down.
We slowly drifted apart.
You were the best thing that happened to me.
Now all I have is me.
I lost my best friend that day,
In the most horrible way.
Growing up shouldn’t exist,
if it means splitting, the Twins.
I miss the walks.
I miss the talks.
I miss the goofing around.
You were the one person that accepted me for me.
And not for someone else.
I miss cuddling up and watching a movie.
I miss singing in the hairbrush and being all groovy.
I miss going into your room and telling you, I couldn’t sleep.
Cause I’d know you’d stay up, even if it was just for me.
I don’t know who I’d be,
if I didn’t have you.
I don’t know what I’d do,
if I was forced to live with you.
But I’ll try to move on.
I’ll try to be strong.
I’ll try to be the best me
that I could ever be.
But I miss running up and giving you hugs.
Discussing how gross are bugs.
I miss seeing your face at the dinner table.
I miss saying “I’m sorry” for whatever did.
I guess all in all.
I just miss YOU.

You make me happy every day,
In your own special way.
I can’t think about you without smiling,
Even if inside I am dying.
And I promise you boy. I ain’t lying.
There’s nothing I’d change about you.
Because you’re perfect the way you are.
There’s nothing I’d rather do.
Then be wherever you are.
If we ever couldn’t talk,
I wouldn’t know what to do.
I think I might just die.
If I couldn’t have you.
If there is one thing I hate that you do.
You are always making me love you.

I can’t get you off my mind
I think about you all the time
I keep you close to my heart
I hope we never part
You make me smile every day.
Even if you just say Hey
You’re always on my mind
It makes me feel so blind
You say that I’m Amazing
I can’t help but gazing.
Even though we are far apart.
We can be together at heart.
Some days I just stare at your eyes.
That is when the time flies.
We talk for hours and hours on end
Forever and ever my friend.
I wish we were more than this
That would be true bliss.

I don't care anymore.
I'm not playing games anymore.
I finally said my goodbyes.
I looked you straight in the eyes.
I can't live life like this.
I can't pretend this is bliss.
This experience made me stronger.
Maybe I'll live a little longer.
They call it a boyfriend for a reason.
Because everything ends in a season.
Why say love if you don't mean it.
Why say trust if you can't believe it.
The experience made me stronger.
Maybe I'll live a little longer.
Nothing is ever what you expect it to be.
So why expect, just let it be.
I've been given labels that have been hard to shake.
But the worst was your girlfriend and that took time to make.
I once was your girlfriend and that's what i wanted.
But what I want now is not to be haunted.
By the memories, I've loved.
The ones I miss and the ones i hated.
And the ones I relive.
But I wouldn't give up this experience for the world. It has made me stronger.
Maybe it will help me live, a little longer.