When I was born, my parents loved me
They raised to be brave and happy
They taught me how to smile and to laugh
They showed me how to build a castle from just scrap
They told me all the reasons to enjoy this life
And to this day… they still don’t know the reasons why I own a knife
And I’m afraid to show them that their little grown-up princess
Holds beneath her body-castle, just a burned-down body-ruins
There’s no way explaining how I got to this
I remember flying as an angel, when suddenly I was drowning into the abyss
From the daughter that they know, there is nothing left
They don’t understand what I hold buried in my chest
And how would they, they don’t know a thing
I never told them why I started hating spring
They can’t hear the wish I make to my birthday candle
And they are blind to my invisible battle
I can’t tell them I’m depressed
And I don’t tell them that for no reason I feel constantly stressed
They can’t understand my fear and need to be alone
I hide how much I want to cut me to the bone
How do I explain why the Devil feels more reasonable than all
And that I don’t want to fly, I want to be hit by a cannonball
I can’t show anyone the mess that I become
When no one knows what I hide from

I made this image of myself
That I’m a happy innocent elf
And no one should uncover
What cannot be recovered
That deep inside
Where nothing can be eyed
Lies a broken figure of a girl
That’s mommy and daddy’s little perfect pearl

When I’m in love, you’re the only one I see
I search for you and try to give you everything I own
Nothing matters more to me than how you feel
And I can listen to your voice, every sound you make, all day and night
And everything you have, will be sacred in my eyes
For you, my love, I will sacrifice my time and change priorities
So that you come first
You’ll be all I think about for hours long
And all my words will have for center you

When I’m in love, I tell you everything I know
I try to make you happy and comfortable with me
Everything I do, I hope you like
Because I do it especially for you
My heart becomes yours and you can do anything with it
I will try to remember all the small details that you hold
For you, my love, I will be tireless and shameless
So that you have all
And I will tell you all my secrets, and my prayers will be towards you

At night I’ll dream of you
How much I love you, and how you love me too
And I will harbor that the feel’s mutual
But little will I know the truth
For this is how I feel for you
Your feelings may not be so same
Even if you like me, even if you want to be with me
Sometimes things happen, and you spend the night in cheat
Or so sometimes I hear
I don’t know your thoughts and I can’t read your mind
If you don’t say it, there’s no way I’d know
You either be with me, or don’t touch me at all
Since I can’t do it for the night, I’m not just for the season
I give my heart to you, so I expect at least to be held with care
‘Cause I bound my love to you
And it hurts when tore apart

When I’m in love, I forgive your all mistakes
I pretend to be heartless, so that you can have your fun
For I accept your every laugh and every joke you make of me
I will stay all night wondering if you’re okay with how I speak
I will close my eyes when you turn to stare at someone else
Even if I cannot stand, I’ll open up the door for you
For you, my love, I’ll take your all bad habits, and make ‘em mine as well
So you that I’d be close to you
And when you need me, I’d be there for you

every poem i try to write
seems to have already been written.
the moon, the stars, the scars on her arms,
already done.
i want to be something new, something different.
describing the feeling of feeling complete, the feeling of youth, exchanging heat in the backseat,
already done.
this picture I have in my mind
comes out as stick figures on paper.
the anxiety, quietly trying to live,
rebel against society,
every rhyme seems cliche, the special depressed snowflake style that i try so hard to stray from.
oppressive, depressive, aggressive, but it’s unimpressive.
every word i write
has already been written.

Hand to me some chocolate
feed my dormant addiction
the one I hide so well.

Sweet tooth just doesn't cut it
I want to swim in a chocolate bath
never come up for air.

He was a free soul
but chained from inside
So many emotions
But emptiness reside

Storms passing through his heart
Yet so calm on the surface
standing amid the crowd
But only loneliness to embrace

Lost in his own world
A ****** to everyone
Slept, but awaken
So strong, yet so broken

flowing in his veins were
Sparks of love passion ambition
A dreamer, a free soul he was
Yet Longing for his freedom

Wake up, they said
Get up, look around
All alone in this room
Blood and guts surrounding you
Horrified, confused
You step outside, you're not amused.

A shadow around the corner
Footsteps getting closer
Presence of the unknown
Your fears become profound
Turn around, run for it..
Through the halls of nightmare
A never ending cycle.

Dead ends, locked doors
No windows, only floors..
Lots of floors, lots of stairs
Bloodstains everywhere
Wait up, stand still
Look behind, it's glowing..
A golden key
Escape is near
Time to get out of here.

Don't hesitate, no room for error
Keep moving forward
To avoid the terror
Take this gun, use it wisely
A single bullet will help you nicely
There's an exit
Try to breach it
No luck, it's not budging.

Use the key, make it fast
What a shame, it doesn't fit
All this time you've been tricked
Toyed around, punched and kicked
You have no power
Just pull the trigger
This is the end
Your time is over.