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Ellie M Apr 2015
Memories
Broken memories
Lifeless before me.
I don't remember them.

Imagine
Not being able
To remember who you are
Your mind
Slowly falling apart.

I try I try
Piecing together
Memories
Strange places
My family
Strangers in minutes

Friends,
Nameless faces.

My mind won't go
to sleep
These faded lights
What remains
Within me.

Imagine,
Not being able
to form a sentence.
Unable to dress yourself.

Memories
Sweet memories
Foreign places.

**** it who am I?!

Faded lights,
I can not see
I don't want
To be alone.

Please please
Don't be angry
Stay with me
I can't fight alone

Help me
Stay with me.
Don't let me go
I need you
Ellie M Apr 2015
7:30am New Message:
"Why are you so ugly?"
New message from Best Friend:
"I can't be friends with you"
"You're gay"

#Godhatesfags
Dear Haters,
If God hates "****"
Why did he make them?
God doesn't hate anyone.

You think.
You're all that
With bitter words
Of hate
Hate makes ******* cowards.

New voicemail:
"Your kind is not welcome"
"You should **** yourself"
To the haters,

This world,
Not one race
Not one religion
Not one ****** orientation.
Our world,
United by;
All walks of life

It don't matter,
If you're straight
Gay
Bisexual
Lesbian
Transgender
#You'rePerfect.

It don't matter,
If you're white
Black
or Blue
#You'rePerfect

Love has
#NoBoundaries
We are one
Let us unite!
With #OneVoice
Hate will cease.

New Message:
"Hey Beautiful"
"You're Perfect"
"Just the way you are"

#Armswideopen
We will be heard.
#LightsOn
Dance anyway
Sing proudly.
#Stand together

Our voices
Not silenced
#NoBoundaries
Ellie M Apr 2015
I haven't been honest,
I'm at war.
A war with no treaty.
A war I fight alone.

I have a confession,
Before you judge
hear me out.
I'm a prisoner of war.
Depression my captor.

Crimson regret bled out.
I am broken I can't move.
My heart crushed.
A fake smile my shield.

I haven't been honest,
Bulimia tortured me.
My body I dispised.
You wont understand.
Your painful words
Break me.

Before you judge
Listen,
I'm a slave with raw hands.
I'm in love with my sorrow.

My veins pour out,
Crimson regret.
You wont understand.
Depression not beautiful
I'm in an unending hell.

I haven't been honest,
I have a confession,
I cry alone at night
Silent cry unheard.

How the **** can you judge?
You don't know me *****.

Now I'm stronger
I'm better than depression.
My scars
A memorial
Remembrance of things past.

Look both ways *****
I'll run you the **** over!
I won't fall this time.

To the girl that slits her wrists
Time to rise.

To the girl that purges.
an attempt to gain
Beauty
Time to rise.

To those fighting
The same war
As I have

Time to rise.
We will rise together.
Our voices will be heard.

We will not be silenced
We will scream
A chant of hope
starts with you and me.
Ellie M Apr 2015
A love once
so new so sweet
gone in the night
Once A Lover
Now an innocent victim.

Enters Lust
Like a moth to the flame.

You lay lowly
Waiting
Longing
The moment
To ****** my innocence.
Inject me with your bitter poison.

The moment to ****** my purity.

Once an innocent love
Now a dark obsession.
Once a happy ending
A bitter nightmare.

Once a beautiful love
Now a dark pleasure
Now lust lives.

Once innocence lived
Now fear lives
Hate lives
Obsession lives.

I gave you my heart
You crushed it
I gave you my all
You gave me hell in return.

******* it,
What do you want from me?
I can't breathe
In your presence I am an empty shell.
I am nothing
In your deadly embrace.

You try to tame me
You try to break me.
You try to ****** my innocence

Listen closely,
I can't be tamed sweetheart
You can't break me.
You wont take my innocence from me.

Unlike you I am strong
My armor impenetrable.
Go ahead try and break me
I dare you
You'll lose.

I will not fall
I will not be shaken.
Get the hell out of my face.

Your lies don't belong here.
It's over
There isn't you and I anymore.
Ellie M May 2014
Dried Up Tears
(To a stranger that I call Dad from your Daughter with a broken heart)

There is pain that can not be fixed by Band-Aids and Poetry.
To the stranger I call Dad.
The one who left me and my sister.
For lies and greed, For your selfish gain.
Why did you run away?
Am I anything to you?

You said that you love me, That was all lies.
That you always be there, Nothing but lies.
You took my heart and stomped on it, a part of me has died.
For years you never said a word, so I write, I stand here with a broken heart.

— The End —