Should I jab this ink into my jugular and let the words express themselves in a manner never seen before?
All the while I pour out every single emotion ever known to exist in my being onto puddles of madness on the floor
Maybe that will allow the world to see the words for what they really are and judge the poet not
And the world can envision its own rolling fields of golden daisies in a soil made from carefully sifted rock
Praise the blood that bleeds profusely upon the lines of every page
And bless the minds of the loved and lost who discovered pain at an early age
Allow me to place the cap so carefully back atop the pen so that you may take my metaphors and open doors and churn them in your heart and head
It's only when I stop bleeding
that I am truly dead

You passed away a few years ago
It hurts more than
a wall crushing my body together
making it into a flat surface
where you can just step on top
It still hurts me
when I write down the words
you were once saying to me
I wonder if your soul follows me around
and is hurting
when you realize
you're still hurting me
even when you're buried
6 feet under the ground
j.f

Every seven years i heard that the cells in your naked body is destroyed and replaced
by a new set of clean cells and its quite a nice feeling knowing
that in just 2 years my body will have never been touched by your bare big hands
my skin will become pure it can
stop rusting like it has been deep under the ocean for thousands of years

i cant wait for the day i come to the surface and just breathe a new oxygen
and you.. you will be out of my mind, and i.. i will not be afraid of you anymore
and you will continue to rot like i have been rotting for 5 years 6 months and 23 days

j.f

when i was just a child and didn't know any better
i would speak to strangers and let them
whisper into my ear little secrets about you

they told me the good things and not the bad things
i had to figure out on my own
that eventually you can be as addictive  

as the baggies that you, yourself gave me
in the corner of the street

j.f

No matter who you are, just know that i'll always love you and you'll always be in my heart. I'll always consider you the first person I've ever caught true feelings for, never will i know the answers to the many questions about you but i hope someone walks into your life and takes your breath away the way i couldn't. I'll forever love you and no one can ever love you the way i can but i hope that one person that can, comes along soon because i do believe you deserve love in your life not the love you made me give you. I'll always want you more than you'll ever want me and that's okay because love doesn't exist only one can love on and the one they love will always love someone else much more and you love someone else much more than you'll ever love me. I hope you do one day fall in love if you haven't already. I hope she touches you much more than just your body. You've hurt me so much but i love you so much that no matter how deeply you cut my skin i still want the best for you. You always say that "God puts people in your life for a reason and they leave for a reason." but you'll never know the reason onto why i got into you life and that is what happens when in reality we aren't meant for one another.

j.f