Accept those thoughts in there,
Every one is yours alone.
On an acceptane and gratitude kick #workinprogress
In a room full of people there you were.
Two hundred eyes all seeing something different,
And there you were, seeing just one pair of eyes.
A solitary tear escapes my grip and tumbles onto the cold floor.
The tear is pride and affection.
I looked up again and there you are,
Will I bring you dying flowers?
You want me to court you,
You want me to wine n dine you
You want me to love your kids
You want your Mum to like me
But you still want dying flowers?
I want you to hold my hand
I want you to walk in the grass barefoot
I want you to sing to empty rooms
I’m not bringing you dying flowers
I want to give you seeds
I want you to water them
I want you to love something
That isn’t person or animal
There are no worse cuts than cutting through life that isn’t your own
Just because I tell you that you’re pretty
Doesn’t mean I’m taking you home
Beauty is kindness
Love isn’t defined by the size of your waist
Nor how long you can hold my gaze
Beauty is still kindness
I may tell you I love you
Years before I want you
Just be kind to me
Take a piece of me with you
In the dark days it may light the way
Now be kind to you
Love is within
He said, she said.
He lied, she cried.
Then he cried because she lied.
Too many hard questions with no good answers.
In the eye of the storm it's all blown away.
You can't shake hands with gloves on.
I don't want to be strong today
I want to be weak
I don't want to stay positive today
I want to cry
I don't want to talk today
I want to punch
I don't want to be kind today
I want to wallow
I don't want to write today
I want to hug
I'm fine, really :)
I spent the evening walking by a water's edge.
Taking nothing in but the smells and sounds.
Rotting driftwood laying the base over two flies fighting or mating,
In a buzzing cacophony over the soft lapping of the tide.
I see a boat far out drifting rhythmically on a lonely swell.
But unlike me, it's empty, rudderless and aimless.
Or like I was, maybe. But not today.
Today I'm free to enjoy this peaceful escape, just minutes from my back door.
I used to be careful not to slip or trip into the murky black,
I wouldn't have had the strength to get back out then.
It's all me now, no pests, nobody's time but my own.
I like it here, I can just be.