Goodbye?
We never actually have proper goodbyes
We don't expect someone to walk out of our lives so suddenly
And say goodbye before or after
We just accept it
Sometimes question it
And move on

The only true goodbye is at the end of someone's life
Even then can they hear us?

siting in bed considering the positives
of taking my life
the painkillers and anti-depressants
I have been prescribed
and who knows?
maybe a cut or two wont hurt
right?
this is taking over my life
I would never wish this upon my worst enemy
but
I lay here in tears and blood
I will never understand why this wont go away and leave me
to be happy
why can I not have that?
why?

Sometimes I feel incredible
Like I have the power to do anything

That slowly fades away
Into darkness

My mind
A dark space
Filled with demons and voices

The thoughts take over me
I lose all control

And suddenly

I have no feelings
I am numb
Yet again

Breaking bonds
Like haunted hearts
Inside lost jars
From sunken ships
Lost at sea
I'm lost you see
& I can't tell you that
Cause it's not up to me
[Anymore]