5:26 a.m and you're still on my mind

how i wish you'd go away

i am crazy for you and i am going insane

you are the drug that i need and the drug that i want

but i am invisible to you
i am nothing


5:41 a.m and i still want you

i want you here, legs intertwined with mine

do you even know how lovely you are?

caress your pale lips against mine

how i wish you would notice me

but i am invisible to you
i am nothing

seemed so easy to forget about everything

I felt so numb but no one even noticed

now you're catching me down here smoking

sitting here feeling so **** hopeless


seemed so easy to just find myself decaying

to just conceal myself from the world

now you're catching me here praying

to a God i don't believe in


it seemed so easy to just pick up that blade

that blade that would change everything

i wish i were so easy to save

now you're catching me here bleeding

bleeding out everything i had gave


seemed so easy to just heal

for it all to just go away

now i'm catching you here holding me, saying  "i know everything seems so surreal"

"but i promise you, i will always stay"


2 years later and it feels so easy to remember

so easy to remember where and when all these marks came from

now i'm catching you here saying "I still remember November"

"I remember how you were oh so numb"

I am
               pure
                 ---
                  whole
                  ---
                  rare
But I am
                        **not yours