Danni

Danni Apr 2015

Angel

Saturday, March 14, 2015 an angel was sent to heaven
and oh god was the next day horrible.
Getting that phone call at 6 in the morning from my dad saying you're gone.
I was at my friend's house and i woke her up from my crying.
God, i wish we were closer and i would've known.
I went to church that day, that Sunday morning i figured out.
and i thought about you. Later, i went to my aunts, your mom's.
Everyone was there.
I held your mom so tightly and just cried.
I didn't know my cousin had an addiction. You were only 18.
Why did you have to go so young?
Drugs are such a horrible thing, but i know you're happy now with your dad.
I'm so sorry, Brittani.
I love you so much, i know you're much better now though. I just wish you were still here.
You'll always be my angel.

#love #angel #imsorry #rip #missingyou #missyou #loveyou #babygirl #restinpeace #flyhigh

Danni Jan 2015

5:26a.m

5:26 a.m and you're still on my mind

how i wish you'd go away

i am crazy for you and i am going insane

you are the drug that i need and the drug that i want

but i am invisible to you
i am nothing

5:41 a.m and i still want you

i want you here, legs intertwined with mine

do you even know how lovely you are?

caress your pale lips against mine

how i wish you would notice me

but i am invisible to you
i am nothing

*everything is so scattered, all over the place, in this poem i know, sorry*

Danni Jan 2015

Fragile

I am fragile you should know
please don't wrap my mind with these lovely words
these lovely words that weren't meant for people like me
because i will use that and I will believe that you have feelings for me
please don't make me believe you love me
when i actually mean the littlest to you
but no matter what,
if you were to stab me, i would apologize for bleeding on your shirt,
i would still kiss you
now you know why i'm so fragile

Danni Jan 2015

November 9th, 2012

seemed so easy to forget about everything

I felt so numb but no one even noticed

now you're catching me down here smoking

sitting here feeling so **** hopeless

seemed so easy to just find myself decaying

to just conceal myself from the world

now you're catching me here praying

to a God i don't believe in

it seemed so easy to just pick up that blade

that blade that would change everything

i wish i were so easy to save

now you're catching me here bleeding

bleeding out everything i had gave

seemed so easy to just heal

for it all to just go away

now i'm catching you here holding me, saying "i know everything seems so surreal"

"but i promise you, i will always stay"

2 years later and it feels so easy to remember

so easy to remember where and when all these marks came from

now i'm catching you here saying "I still remember November"

"I remember how you were oh so numb"

*Just a little thing i came up with from my experiences in the past, not so good, but it's okay*

#depression #itgetsbetter #imstillhere #imgladyoustayed

Danni Jan 2015

Untitled

I am
               pure
                 ---
                  whole
                  ---
                  rare
But I am
                        **not yours

-not really into writing poems because horrible at it but whatever-

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