I am searching for a partner.
A kindred soul.
someone much like myself,
looking to run away from it all.
I have the plan,
I just need a friend.

Imagine to find
a cave, hiding behind a waterfall,
in a stress free world, away from society.
Denouncing our stance as humans, and conducting our lives as animals might.
Living in nature.
somewhere beautiful.

In the eternity of my soul
I exist in only a dream
of escape from this reality
into enchantment long lost
in the evolving world surrounding us.
With the excruciating knowledge
that every day will remain the same.  
Until, eventually, I come to find myself
expelled from this body,
finally exploring the truths of my world.

Blonde hair,
straightened into submission.
Face made up,
hiding the flaws.
'Beautiful'
I wonder what the world
sees,
when they call you beautiful.
Because when I look at you
all I see is your contorted soul,
twisted into a being
built on the pain of others.
Under that makeup,
under that skin,
under that superficial idea,
you have no idea what beauty is.

I am not defined
by your ideas of
humanity
I am disgusted by them.

Ive let myself believe
for so long
that you had broken me.
Because I loved you.
But I know that I am not broken,
just so disappointed in myself
for forgetting for so long that
love does not apply to me
not your kind of love anyways.
I came into your life,
to build you into the man you
needed to be.
and when that task was finished,
you were finished with me.
This is what I came to do
but I forgot
to stay disengaged.
and I am ashamed.
so I will move on
to the next broken man
who needs a little help
from a strange soul.

How
*******
pathetic.

the
way
your name tastes
like acid on my tongue.

so I carve
the letters
in to my skin
hoping
so
irrationally
to dissolve it all away

until I am nothing
but
bones
concealing
the
heart that I will
never need again.

I wish the world were blind,
so love could be.