I held you in my arms
Tight as it may
Your eyes held shot
As you convulsed a stigmatic farewell
I sniffled you a goodbye
I could feel my eyes melt
I squinted back the tears
My heart held.

I held you in my arms
I called upon your keepers
Their white coats flared the air
As they scrambled here and there
Frantically and effortless
I sat and stare gloomy from a chair
Grieve gripped the air
My heart held.

I held you in my arms
When you gapped your last breath
Stiff and lifeless you lay there
Peacefully in the mournful arms of death
I sniffled
I cried
Questions in my mind
You were not there
It was pointless
It was hopeless
My heart held.

I held you in my arms
Now you're six feet in the ground
It's been a numbered years
But you're not here
Once my heart held
Your absence is felt
But we must live
Even after death.

Heartbeats
Thump! thump!!!
Life after death
Is it the beginning?
Or is it the end?

Anxiety only makes me sick to my stomach
I don't want to be anxious when it's comes to us
I love the smell of your cologne
I love the sound of your laughter, but not the deep feeling in my guts that tells me you'd one day leave and not look back

Till then I would love to be the woman of your dreams

©_shemiii