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Dylan Lane May 2015
I talk
And laugh
As if it was the most natural thing in the world
As if I have not been to the emergency room 3 times in the last 6 months
Because people thought I would end it.
As if I am not wearing baggy clothing
As if I have eaten more than 500 calories today
I joke
About how many thin mints I could eat as if
I wouldn’t make myself throw up afterwards.
Dylan Lane May 2015
It is my job to feel your pain
It is my job to keep you sane
But I need help from someone, too
You didn’t give up on me,
So I wont give up on you.
Dylan Lane May 2015
I can’t count the number of times I have read that little quote
Superimposed over black and white photos
Of those skinny girls
Sick girls
Stick-thin pictures of girls that my best friend tells me are impossible
Your words
Nothing
Tastes
As
Good
As
Skinny
Feels.
Oh no, my dear, nothing tastes as good as being whole
Feeling whole
Skinny doesn’t have a taste
But if I had to give it one, it would be
The taste you have in the back of your mouth when the alcohol’s washed down your throat
Sour and burning
Skinny tastes like it's pressing on my lungs
Skinny tastes like the inside of the mouth of someone who you know will never love you
I kissed ana long and hard in the dark but her bones
All
Snapped
When I pressed too hard.

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