so i say farewell
i'll let go of your coat tail
i'll let go of all the things that made me love you
like the tiny gap between your two front teeth
or the way your skin glistened in a day's morning sun

so i say farewell
its not like there won't be an imprint forever inked on my soul
it will be a reminder
for when i'm successful and wealthy
with lots of children and a loving husband
to not love them fully
because of the boy who stole my strength
the strength i was to pass onto them
\
so i say farewell
to the days where my youth shined bright
to the talks where i'd fall asleep with a genuine smile on my face
to the fights where afterwards i'd hate myself for caring so much
to the times where life was simple
but
now i say greetings to the life of fake smiles and empty conversations for your absence has made my life unbearable.

~

If you only knew

these feelings I clench in my fist,

locked in endless lingering,

breathing for only this

Painting a future

caused by eternal dreams

found in your…



Smile…



and I too shall smile,

laughing in flowered

blooms filled with heartbeats,

fragrances sifting

along alphabetical fence lines,

counting the letters

found in your…



Words…



send a message,

feeding desires of my visions,

fruited of vine fed bounty,

weaving about my skin,

tempting me to search deeply

the roots

found in your…



Thoughts…



flow freely

within my soul,

beyond scattered butterflies

on the top rung

of this laddered stairway,

padded with beliefs

found in your…



Love…



sets me free,

fits me with wings of chiffon renderings,

soaring to destined heights,

glowing in the shimmering rays

of a springtime sun

in the forever solitude I

found in you…