A peck of his lips filled with sin
     my labored breathing  
          his calloused hands wander my body
          exploring every inch of me
He holds my hand
      and steals my breath
           with a rope he found in the kitchen
Calloused hands wander over my body
     as he lay me with his ex lovers
          each more beautiful than  the next
          each more grave than the last
Beware of boys with blue eyes like sapphires dropping in the ocean

Why am I always here to save your soul, but whenever my soul is hurting you disappear into the smoke.

I try to open my eyes onto the world but all you do is hold me back,
Stopping me from seeing what is toxic and what is true.
What did I do to you to deserve such hatred and anger,
All I know I did was help and all you gave me was hurt.