All there
was was silence
Stuck in a
soundless chasm
Looking for something
that is intangible
And getting lost
in the process

I decided to stop
And began to
think logically
To become sensible
That I am so
proud of my prowess

But then I realize
When did emotions
ever become rational
Logical thoughts won't suffice
what's lingering inside

Inside
Feelings squirm
Feelings eat us
until they grow

They devour even parts 
of us that are firm
They multiply like germs
They eat until nothing's left

And all that remains
is the silence

Just kidding
No, I won't falter
Falter my guard
Guarding myself
From harm

Just kidding
No, I won't let
Anyone near
Won't let my 
Chilled heart
Be warm

Just kidding,
No more flowers
Happy-feely thoughts
That cloud up
My mind

Just kidding,
No, I won't play
Won't push next
But would rather,
Pause and rewind

Just morphing
Back into having
A chilled heart
That's uncapable
Of feeling anything

Numb
'Til the flowers
Grow back

Stone cold
Heart that's been
dying to hold on
And hold on it shall 
Do with being
It's chilled, guarded self

But something's happened
Feelings starting
To unyield
In front of me
Eyes that are
Starting to see
Ice melting
Heart pounding
Mind boggling
About what's
Happening

I can feel my
Focus faltering
Focus on things
That I should
But only if I could
(And I'm scared that)
Then I would
Focus my all 
On you

Filled with gay
May I stay
Stay hopeful 
Hope for this
I wouldn't miss 
Miss this *******
******* of a gig
Giggles fill the air
Excited about hearing
Hearts beyond repair
Although mine isn't 
Broken, merely
Hiding in the shadows
The feelings
Hidden for so long
I'm not sure if they're
Still there
I think they are
Not too far
Far from the spotlight
Am I to fight
This gentle little light
From becoming
This ball of ember
Remember how a light
That shines too bright
Becomes a fire that
Burns and hurts
Turn now
Go back
Back into the night

Cold heart
Heart that's chilled
to the bone
Even though hearts
don't have bones
Yours is probably
made of stone
A stone that's meant
to be skipped on a lake
And skip it shall
'til it sinks low
So your heart shall fall
down to the bottom
And there shall I
dive deep down
to pick it up