She is my sunshine
She's brought back hope for better days
They talk about fake romance, This seems so subtle
It feels so real
Like a young lad with a lady
Can't explain it

Life's short
And I wanna spend it with her
She makes me smile
Just darkness everyday when she is not around

She said she is scared
She might hurt me
Don't be
You are strong
You got to take risk

Maybe I told her this so that she could be strong enough to help me overcome my own fears

With her, I tend to forget about my scares and horrors
I tend to see a bright future, as long as am with her

She is beautiful
She is smart
She is lovely
She is amazing

I bet she is my everything

I know she is the angel my demons are scared of
The light that makes my darkness go up in smoke

Like a vampire in the morning sunlight
So is the god-shaped hole
When I'm close to her glimmering glory

Then you find me on the bathroom floor
Red eyes
The only words you hear
The party's over
I just can't help but wonder
Who is this I am celebrating?
So you take me back
I blow the candles in my own birthday party
Drink from the poison flask
All just to forget the past
And heal hell

I can't kiss you
My lips are dry
They think I am wasted
I could not anoint my
Self with oil

Black sheep
Take a hike
Discouraging
Believing in you
Only to realise you don't have a life

The words haunt me
In the darkness, I cry
Under the stars, I see no sign of life
Nightmares wake me up
At the wee hours of the night

I need someone to save me
Someone to fill
This God ****** hole
In my heart

No one's willing? Okay.
May He hate me as well
I wish I could visit my spirits
That keep me happy as hell

Before I self-destruct
Before I go
Tell them
It was nice getting to know them

I slept last night cold and void
Dark and *****
Without purpose and form

I dreamt of an angel
She was bright
She was light
She was purpose
She was clean

I woke up
I smiled
I took my phone
All I could say
I am in love with you

The sun's shining on my tattered bed sheets
Another day of sadness
Just like any other day
If I don't come back with soiled pants
Then I will go to church and offer a burnt offering
I go to the bathroom
Flinch at every drop of water that hits my ****** wounds
I go to the mirror and look
The big swelling I got yesterday
After the "queen bee" hit my head against the wall
Someone again placed a banana peel on my way
I could only hear shutter sounds as I fell
Became the meme of yesterday
Just like I was the day before the day before the day before...
I look at her in the mirror
In the school uniform
With tears in my eyes
Filled with anger and remorse
Punching the girl in my mirror
I roared at her
"I DON'T WANNA BE YOU ANYMORE."

So, what's on my mind?
A lot is on my mind.
Are we being watched from above or below?
A lot is on my mind.
Hey Jude, take a sad song and make it better,
You know something like
Crimson and clover,
Darling boy,
Not Mr. Lonely.

A lot is on my mind.
If I were to die,
How many would mourn for me till their final breath?
Just me.
That's why I hate the freakish soul.
But i love it
Because I will just forget it exist,
Simple.

They taught us to scream out loud
In the name of the foreigner's god
We screamed out for aid
In the meantime
They sacrificed our gold
To their gods of greed and hate
Yeah, they made a fool of everyone we knew.

I just want us to dance, babe
I know he hurt you
I know your heart is broken
Let's dance to the beat of your broken heart
Here's my chest, make it wet with your tear
Feel the warm as I hold you tight
It's icy outside
Stay
I will not leave you
Just be the love of my life.

I just wanted someone to tease
I just wanted someone to laugh at
I just wanted someone to sing my new song to
Just someone to share my darkness with
Someone
Just someone who would bring meaning to my messed up humane nature
Just someone to get drunk with
Just someone to pat my back when everything turns its back on me
Just someone
I just needed someone like you
Someone to provide the shoulder to cry on
Just someone
Just one someone

Today is my birthday and my mother is dead
All my friends are fake, I had to remind each one of them
Twenty two years of age and I am lonelier than hell

I really hope it's peaceful up there
I hope the grass is greener on the other side
I really hope you always think of me
As you hang by the rope
I hope you will still think of me

I hope you are happy
I wish I could still feel your love
I hope I will still feel your presence in the memories you leave behind
I hope you will be happier without me
As you hang up there
Breathless
With no life-giving pulse
By the rope
I hope you will still think of me

Because though you were selfish enough to leave me behind
I still love you...

I hope you are also trying to talk to the moon
Watching the night sky
As we promised we would every night
The beautiful night
Before you went to the countryside
Because we both know
Under that dull bright sky
Our hearts connect
And we can feel each other's presence
You know I love you
And I see your face up there my love
What a beautiful night
Full of stars sky
You have made this to be
My darling
Under this moon!

I experience flashes of deja vu every time I think of taking you
I hate the feeling of expecting regret whenever I wanna be with you
I don't wanna hurt her, but I can't lose you because I am human
Am I guilty of having feelings of an almost human nature?

Am I weird?
Why does it feel as though I heard someone ask that same question before?
****, deja vu again!
But I miss you and the confusion I go through when I think of you
I guess only you can understand

I like her. She is the bad girl of my good side.
But I love you, the girl of my every side.
Of same blood,
I guess that's why
Am attracted like a hyena
Confused like a hungry lion
Of the similar aromas from you

You told me not to get lost in the woods
I am sorry but I had to search for the one that made me insane
My reason for loving and living
Now I am back singing a bitter symphony, a cruel harmony
I wish I listened in the first place

What did I ever do wrong to face this for so long?
As the bass rings in my ear,
I remember the moments we had last year
I am now crying, "Stay"
But I still watch you go away
The day had not even began
But you already gave up
You said, "I love you. Our love will conquer all."
But here we are, the war already lost, not yet fought.
I have never fallen in love
But I somehow know that I did crush
I somehow know my heart is brittle, broken like little pieces of glass
How do you fix such?
Dr. Time says it's impossible
Dr. Love says, "You are on your own."
Yet I feel safer with the same one who broke my heart

At the moment, only drugs can let me escape from this reality
I wanna go back to my small cocoon world
I went out once
I almost died
Never coming out till then
When everyone will wanna be me
This time, not even the most beautiful will get me out of this