I stay up all night downing my memories
Drowning my sorrows
Keeping the demons at bay
For one more day
It can always wait until tomorrow
It can wait 'til sunrise to face my enemies

I can plug in
I can overpower the thoughts
I can defeat what drags me to the end
It helps me defend
It kills what I've caught
And its fire wipes away my sin

Temporary
Imprecise
My aim is not true
And I cannot undo
Cannot stop this device
This is all necessary

Stalling
Falling
Calling
Crying
Denying
Dying.

Dead.
­Hey

Maybe it's all in my head.

Purge your pride,
Purge your rights,
Purge your denial,
Purge your integrity,
Purge your stability,
Purge your innocence,
Purge your virginity,
Purge your anger,
Purge your happiness,
Purge your sorrow,
Purge your doubt,
Purge your past,
Purge your present,
Purge your future,
Purge what you know,
Purge what you don't know,
Purge your mind,
Purge your heart,
Purge your lungs,
Purge your blood,
Purge your beliefs,
Purge your taboos,
Purge your sickness,
Purge your health,
Purge your degrees,
Purge your ignorance,
Purge your racism,
Purge your tolerance,
Purge your love,
Purge your hate,
Purge your indecency,
Purge your modesty,
Purge life,
Purge death,
Purge lucidity,
Purge sobriety,
Purge intoxication,
Purge absolution,
Purge desolation,

Purge.

Purge until you can't purge anymore,
And become perfect in another life.

[M],

I miss you, man. First and foremost.

I'm not sure if it helps when I say you haven't missed much, but you know how this area is. Same old **** and a different day.

As I write this, I'm fresh off of a work week heading into a three day weekend, which, as I'm sure you're aware, is a blessing when you're in the [JOB].
Today was payday, and this weekend was dedicated to what I wanted to do after two months of straight work without any kind of rest.

Band practice on Saturday: Eight hours of nonstop musicianship among people that understand what music truly is.

On Sunday,[...]

I was going to borrow my dad's car and [...]

Unfortunately, either my boss or my boss' bank royally ****** up my paycheck. To keep it short, I have to wait until this Monday to get paid, effectively ruining everything I looked forward to.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, at this point, I'm as locked up as you are, brother.

I've been told countless times to smile, to make the best of things, to... whatever. It's for them above all else. They don't like drama, yet they fish for it.

I'm sitting in [BAR] because my father had the decency to lend me cash until next week. I knew where that money was going just as much as he did. I came here to drown my sorrows, they know I'm upset, why can't they just leave me be?

[MUTUAL FRIEND] misses you. I'm sure [KARAOKE DJs] do as well. I found out what happened through [FORMER COWORKER], and [MUTUAL FRIEND] elaborated. I'm glad [SISTER] posted a way to get a hold of you on your Facebook; without her, I wouldn't have known what to do.

I hope you're doing well, [M]. Write back if you can, I'd love to hear from you. In case something gets mixed up or whatever, here's my address. I'll check it every day. Otherwise, you know my number, and it never changes.

[ADDRESS, ******* CREEPERS]

Stay strong, stay safe, and above all, stay gold.
I love you, brother. I'll see you soon enough.

[...]

Don't give me that ****.
Do not treat depression as a disagreement, or
A comparison.

Some children need water.
I need a brain.
What good is sustaining a body
When the mind is in a coma
The body cannot, will not, self sustain

Do not tell me there are people
In this world
Who would literally ****
To live my life.
Our lifestyles are not our problems.
Our problems are not our lifestyles.

Our problems
Individually
Rest within ourselves.

If the world starves, I am starving too
In a concept that only I will understand.
I know, I feel, I hate, I live,
And nobody can take that away from me.

I cannot tell you what's wrong
You cannot tell me what's right.

I CANNOT TELL YOU WHAT'S RIGHT.
YOU CANNOT TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG.