Nobody,
just a
shadow of
a somebody.
And lacking a heart,
only the memories
of the somebody remain.
Residing in neither the light
nor the darkness, only in nothing.
A shell of the somebody’s final stand.

I'm on the verge of tears
And I need to know why.
You'd think I'd know but I don't
and I don't want to try.

To try to to figure out life
and what is unseen.
To try to be part of the world
When I'm just looking through a screen.

And I don't want to try to
Make things right
Or try to stand up for myself
And put up a fight.

And I don't want to try to
Figure out who I am.
Or try to fix my heart
When I just don't give a ****

And honestly you'd think
Since I'm on the verge of tears
I'd know what is wrong with me
But I haven't for years.

And I'm drained from the fight
I've been putting up for so long
So excuse me if I'm done
With trying to figure out what's wrong.

I'm trapped in my own head.
The world is spinning around
And my breathing is hard.
My body is shaking and
I have no chance of waking
From this cage of fear
I have put myself in.
I put myself to sleep
Only to wake up
In this cage
Breathing hard
And head spinning.
And I can't feel a thing
Nothing is real
And I can't bring myself back
To the world of the living.
To the world I am barred from.
To the world I can only see
But never touch.
To the world I only watch in a dream.

When
The dark
Has its hold
On you, things may
Seem hopeless. But don’t
Forget: there is always
A way. Never forget that.
Lights cast a shadow, and if you
Find the shadow, you will find the light.
When you find the shadows, search for the light,
And it will lead you to your destiny.
So embrace the shadows, for they will
Lead you to something much greater
Than you know. Anything lost
Can always be found if
You look hard enough.
So when you’re lost,
Know that you
Can be
Found.

It grew like a wildfire,
Small, but spreading swiftly
And I tried to stop it,
But it kept growing
And growing
And growing
And by the time I realized
Just how big it was,
It was almost too late.
I could've stopped it,
Could've destroyed it
If I did but one thing
In that one moment.
And in that moment that mattered most…


I failed.


I failed.
I couldn't do it
And it sealed my fate.
It doomed me.
It rewrote destiny
To a future much darker.
It took over and
Now I've doomed everyone:
The world is aflame…


Because of me.