How do you know you're ready to experience love again when your mind is the last thing you trust?
you have every reason to be skeptical
3 failed relationships proves that doesn't it?
you blame yourself
not seeing the warning signs
ignoring the bad parts of a relationship
thinking it'll change
or maybe that it simply doesn't matter enough
but love is a drug
and love is blinding
every.single.time
love has blinded me
love has given me such a high
that when the withdrawal hits
it is so excruciating
I blame myself for getting high in the first place
so why do I keep doing it?
maybe because each time I am convinced that it is going to last
or maybe because I am just so desperate to get it right
My drug has failed me so many times that the sight of it now makes me sick to my stomach
I have turned away from it entirely
So why does a part of me worry that I will never get high again?
Sober is safe
Sober is secure
but
Sober is boring
Nothing will beat the feeling of being high in love.