i want to like you
not because its natural
but because i know how to play this game
i know how you like my laugh
and when you want to hear it
i know where you like my hands
and when you want to feel them
i know you like lace
and when you want to see it
i know you like strawberrys
and when you want a taste
i know how to make you love me

it's midnight
and my mind is filled to the brim
not with ideas or fake scenarios
but rather tears waiting to burst
i can feel the dam giving way
i haven't the tools or manpower to mend it
this **** dam will burst
i just hope not in front of you
i don't need my breakdown to be apart of your narrative
my sadness is not a story element for you
my sadness has nothing to do with you
but i know you'd prefer it did

i was given the role of love interest #1
it wasn't the role i auditioned for
but it was the role i was given
i was left two choices
play the part
or
leave your show
and so i played my part
but the script wasn't so nice
and neither were the other characters
so i dropped the act
and you dropped me
because
because i guess i never really mattered
i never was your friend huh?
just love interest #1