The way you looked at me said it all

It was hard for me to feel love again
When he left
All my butterflies in my stomach died
But when I met you
All my butterflies revived
And that moment I knew
What love felt like again

You fell in love with me
But I fell in love with someone else
But that someone else fell in love too
Just not with me

seeing the pain through your eyes
knowing everything i do doesn't work
i cant help
your emotionally drained
each scar on your body because of the war you faced
and it gave you something to remember
every cut you made
i see a little plant growing out your wound
and its getting bigger and bigger
until it sprouts to a beautiful rose
sometimes a tulip or even a daisy
its sad having to see you suffer
to finally see your beauty force itself out your body
wanting to breathe
wanting to grow
the more it grows
the closer to your death
your body is protecting your garden
little by little
the thorns pricking at your skin to escape
finally the blade took charge to unleash the beauty of those flowers
knowing its best to escape
because your dying
knowing i cant help you
sadly i have to watch your flowers grow
and the worse part about it
some people are watering the plants
and its not even you

the curtains opened
the show started off great
it lasted for a while before it was to late
all the lights flashing on her beautiful face
she was having a great time
but she had to be careful just in case
she showed the talents she can do and she also embraced
she showed the whole world what she can do
but the works that she did it showed the truth
she enjoyed what she did it expressed her true colors
she did an amazing job but sadly the show was over
when the audience clapped and cheered she was uncertain
and before you know it
in the blink of an eye
that's were it was time to close the curtains

She made it to the top of the mountain took a deep breath and smiled

Thats when she finally decided to start living the life she deserves

I'm not ashamed of my scars
I embrace them
even if there intentions were bad

This is me
Beautiful tragedy
You already had a glimpse of my problems
But you didn't hear about the other side of me

I put people before myself, I just care to much
I laugh a lot , I just can't help it. People say I'm funny so I guess I am
I'm not only a writer but I draw as well , its my escape
I'm adventurous and I don't only mean by traveling (I dont mean in a bad way either)
I don't love easily but when I do fall in love hard
I just can't help to love everyone, they give me hope in loving myself
When someone is knocked down I cant help to pick them up
even if the price is me being knocked down
I don't let people step all over me but I have been taken advantage of
I believe in raw beauty
I'm a supporter
I love to help and listen
I'm active , I can't sit for so long and no I dont have ADHD
I like to be alone but I also like to be with my friends


This is me
this is just a little taste
this is nothing yet
but this is me
Beautiful tragedy

Its a rainy day
I'm sitting on my bed under the sheets reading poems
with my breakfast besides me
for some reason
I felt different at this moment
looking around my surroundings and looking at my work
I couldnt help but to smile
this day ...well this moment felt different
I felt ....acceptance enter my heart
I felt free
but this is just the beginning

I wish I can stop loving you the way you stopped loving me

Get lost in the moment because that moment wont be here forever.

I found a way to be happy
grab the knife
slide it across your wrist
until I'm empty inside and out
you say I don't need to do this
to stop
but theres no other way to live but to die
knowing your whole life was a lie
the knife isn't taking my life
the hatred of this world is

I finally felt myself slowly moving on from you
I put hope into this boy
this unknown boy
because finally for so long
I actually developed a crush on someone
but now I got my hopes up
because he doesn't feel the same
and it feels like my heart broke into a million pieces again

Hi to the mysterious boy I have a crush on
I'm surprise to say I have a crush anyways
I guess I'm just curious
you seem like someone I want to know
your probably have a girl friend or like someone already
but its ok
I dont even know who you are
or what you look like
but something about you
makes me like you
but I just want to get to know you

Please take an easy
Also don't rush me when we kiss
This means a lot to me
I am glad that you came into my life
you must be a very special guy then
I've waited for many years for this moment
I have trust issues
and I was scared to have my first kiss because
I was scared of them taking everything and leaving
this meant a lot to me and I didn't want to just give it to anybody
I wanted to give it to someone that deserves it
someone that I love
and that loves me  
and I've been with for a long time
you shown me that I can love again
that I can trust again
you shown me that you are the one
you win, you shown me that you deserve it
even if you leave I wont regret thing
because I know I loved it in the moment
thank you for loving me for who I am
and accepting me with open arms
and staying by my side even if I am a disaster
I love you

I was with you but you were thinking of her
and now I'm with him and I'm thinking of you

By: Witt lowry

She called herself fat
I questioned why ?
first of all why do you feel bad about yourself?
she said I just do
well let me tell you
their cant be no other reason besides SOCIETY
because if you think about it
you would of been fine with yourself if it wasn't for someone calling you fat or something
here's 2 examples
Adam and Eve they were both naked and didn't think anything about each other
you didn't hear them saying "oh your fat" or "oh your skinny" NO you didn't
its called acceptance
judgement slipped itself into this world
switch it around maybe if it wasn't ok to be skinny
maybe if being fat was the new trend
people wouldn't see nothing wrong with being fat but they would of saw something wrong with being skinny
when theirs nothing wrong with neither of them
its just society putting labels on people and things
we should love ourselves no matter what
its just these cruel hatred people that want to bring you down
your beautiful no matter what
if you want to be skinny go right ahead but don't let society change you
don't let a guy or a girl change
you don't let NOBODY change you
if you want to change for you, for your health go right a head theirs nothing wrong
with you wanting to improve on yourself but their is something wrong if you letting society change you to be like them, to be the same
the only reason people bring you down is because some people are scared to be themselves because of society
well let me tell you this you have courage if your being yourself
you don't care about what others say
its good to be different then being the same  
one day someone will love you for you
not for you appearances or figure
but for you
before that happens you need to love yourself first
theirs NOTHING wrong with being fat or skinny
REMEMBER THAT
its just society and your mind that makes it seem like their is

I don't want to continue running back to you
knowing that you don't want me back
I can't help to think there's hope
when deep down inside this is something that cant be fixed
I'm trying to hold on to the names he calls me once in a while
the names he use to call me while we were together
I want to move on from you
but I cant
I'm trying to fix something that is not going to change by loving them
even though loving them right now is dangerous
I have to slowly move on
because loving you right now is like letting my heart commit suicide
you say you love me
but you don't prove it
you call me by my names
but you don't mean it
you say you miss hearing my voice
but you don't even want to call me
you say all these things
but manage to always have an excuse for each and everyone of them
I'm trying to move on
but your such an addiction
A drug that is slowly killing me
but making me feel good
sadly I'm giving you the privilege
I'm letting you drag me to hell
but its only because your guiding me there
because your with me
I just cant let go what we had
and if I have to be sent sent to hell
just to feel that temporary feeling again
then I guess lead the way

Dont you ever have that feeling that something doesnt feel right
but you follow it anyways
like God is telling you to stop
and leads you to another direction
but you dont listen and keep moving forward
so God has to make something go wrong or that person to hurt you
but your so ignorant and you take the pain and keep trying
and feel like God is going to let you do what you think is going to work
then hurt you so bad that you cant continue

yeah thats how I feel like right now

It hurts thinking about seeing you with someone else
but its going to break me completely when you find someone else
its going to hurt really bad
because I know shes going to be better then me

I lost myself 6 months ago
all because of you
I don't know who I am anymore
not only that you left
you took apart of me with you
and I can never get that back
because its behind me and I'm not looking back

I lost myself trying to forget you
trying to fix myself
I knew I couldnt stay in the place I was in
so I left
but I left my feelings behind
with the heartbreak that I call my past

but ended up bringing regret with me
its my fault for making you apart of me
now I dont know who I am anymore

hopefully I will find myself again
but this time not in someone else
but within the the body I call home
and with the soul that is lost in her own home


hopefully someone day I will learn how to be happy again
someone day I will learn how to love again
I will fall in love again
but not with another soul
but with the girl that knows how to love everyone else
besides herself

Your mouth was a blessing and now its a weapon

If I can go back to change things I honestly would take that chance in a heart beat

In my home self love does not exist

My body is my chamber and my disguise and I am the prisoner and the victim

She knows things aren't ok
But she feels ok
when you tell her that everything will be ok

The little bit of self worth I had you stripped it away
Little by little until I had nothing left






thats why I dont know who I am anymore

Please don't stop telling me you love me

thats the only thing that keeps me sane
thats the only thing that keeps me moving
thats my oxygen, I need to breathe

those are the words that keep me hoping...

I blossomed
and became more then just a
confused depressed girl in a dysfunctional family
I became me

I loved you
when I didn't love myself
Said you loved me
But you only loved yourself

-Layton Greene

I am drowning in my past
but its ok
I can save myself
I can swim to shore
but it feels like forever

I dont want to admit
that I need a hand
but I do

Waves hovering over me
and crashing into me
causing me to sink

the light starts to fade
and the surface starts to become blurry
it felt like everything stopped

please help me....

I thought that was it
until a hand reached into the water
an pulled me out

and who pulled me out was

my future

Depression is the key to death

I have to sacrifice my nights for you
Because if I dont
theres a chance I wont have any more nights with you again

Saying sorry will give you forgiveness and a settled situation
But doesn't mean it will heal the wounds you left

Things will get better
but it will get better if you let it
and if you do something about it

write from the heart

Heart racing
Sweat dripping
Knowing this is the end
Don't expect
Nobody is listening
Blood leaking
The blind  is seeking
This world is hell
They wont help you
Can't you tell
At night you were yelling
You're the only one that can hear
The demons hovering over you
I know you were scared
I know you're tired
I can tell in your eyes
You're not fine
You can't even trust nobody
With all these back stabbers and lies
Looking like you're about to collapse
Pumping drugs in your veins
Hoping this day is your last
Going on your knees begging God for help
Of course our society doesn't know how “we” felt
I feel alone
All alone in the darkness
Locked up in my mind
I know I'll never be set free
It feels like God turned his back on me
Don't come in I'm slowly bleeding
Feeling drained , almost empty
Thinking about death is a good feeling
Nobody will never understand me
Nobody will ever care
But even if I die, death  I'll always fear
But its better then living
I know I'm the last person you would want to save
But it's so sad knowing people will change once i'm in my grave

I'm sorry but it comes to a point that I dont want to live anymore
I'm always asking the same **** question "what am I waiting for?"

I'm trying so hard to be ok and trust me I want to live
But I'm giving it my all , I just dont got no more to give

I'm honestly tired of everything I already feel dead
I have a headache, I'm tired of hearing these ******* voices in my head

I'm calling out for help , but you cant see a hand when its reaching from the dark
You wanna know my story? Look at my body and follow the paths of marks

This world is ******* me up and I'm tearing myself down as well
As much as I run, jump and play I can't help to feel locked up in a cell

I'm really tired of the pain, I'm trying to be strong
But you cant tell a girl to continue fighting when shes been fighting for to long

Why continue when nothing changes, I'm just going to be in the same place
Yes I'm Gods gift to the world but I am sorry God but I just feel like a waste of space

I just want everything to end, I just want the pain to go away
I just want to walk around able to actually say that I'm OK

I just wish I can start my life all over and fix things
But no I'm just the puppet of my mind being controlled by strings

God I am begging you to please help me
I just cant take it anymore, I just want to spread my wings and be free

Your child cant take it anymore, she doesnt want to disappoint you and give back the gift you gave her that is called "life"
How could your child use this gift when she doesn't even feel alive?

The sad thing is that some people dont understand and they see you but dont do anything about it
So I am tired of this game so I just wanna quit

Please help me....please

I can't fall in love without you
please don't fall in love without me

by: Zara Larsson

He traded his gun for love

-Stephen